Dreams are illusions as reality dominates

2010-09-10T01:36:00.001+08:00

I'm moving this blog to my new tumblr! I'll leave this blog here for memories. Visit it here: http://lost-souls.tumblr.com.

You can always go to facebook page and check it out too!

2010-08-31T22:04:00.002+08:00

Exams are in two days. Okay i guess i've studied enough, i wanted to make sure that i've studied properly, i did it. Revise nicely for exams and the outcome will be the outcome. Will try not to regret it. Any of you who wants to hang out, please do it after 9th September. My mind is set on the exams and the rest will be counted as distractions. Lol.. I'm focused.

Well, i'm considering switch my blog to a tumblr. Haven't actually seen much of the features but i only know that you can blog and people can leave questions. Many reasons for changing to tumblr also other than new functions and fresh looks, like screwed-up log in name which can't be changed. My blog url was created in sec 2, brilliant and innovative name at such a young age, but perhaps it's not applicable anymore. The change will take place after my exams. Yeah so readers, this maybe the second last post on this blog BUT NEVER the last post for me.

2010-08-28T00:45:00.005+08:00

Today's post: Muggers and Slackers

I'm sure the term muggers are frequently used in the context of everything we do. To most people, studying alone is equivalent to mugging. Some people think that mugging is a crime and that muggers are discriminated for this reason. Of course not really that type of extreme discrimination but rather like " Oi You mugger". Personally, it isn't insulting at the least bit. In fact it makes me happy to know yes i'm motivated! To those people in CCKSS, they must be thinking that i am a slacker. To those people in Poly, they must be thinking i am a mugger. Don't worry i'm don't have a split personality. I'm perfectly normal. I'm just studying towards a goal. But if it makes anyone of you happy that i am a mugger or slacker, i'll let you define it. LOL!

As i've mentioned earlier, mugging is NOT a crime. But rather mugging and pretending you didn't study is more likely to be classified as a crime. To simplify it, it is considered HYPOCRISY! The thing is that if you studied, just say you studied. Or at least, don't say anything! Trying to mislead people into thinking you did not study is really lame and suspicious. People can only come to one conclusion that you are prententious and trying to let our guard down. Why lie when telling the truth is not that hard? The main fault just lies in people denying that they studied when they could have said yes. Nobody likes to know that you are hiding something. Especially when you results reflect it. Even geniuses require studying in order to learn, just that they pick things up faster. Educational hypocrisy is one example of something we hate to hear and see.

Here is my definition of Muggers/slackers:

Muggers= Peole who invest time heavily in studying. Maybe more than an "average human"
Frequently misunderstood as Zombies/Robots/anything inhuman

Slackers= People who invest time heavily in anything but studying.
The self-proclaimed majority of the people! Most of the time think that they are people with proper lives.

The roles of People during Exam periods! ( Must SEE)

The fake slackers aka Snake/ Hunter/ CCB/ Bastards/ Tom Hanks/ Actor
"Slackers" ----> Behind the Scenes-ers------> Boasters-----> Hollywood Actors--->Winners
Basically the flow goes this way, the fake slackers slack with people before exams. When it's nearing, they are the behind the scene-ers in which they study when people are unaware. This part is the longest process. It goes on and on. Third stage, they become boasters when the victims start studying. They say that the subjects are easy and not much studying is required. The fourth stage is the beginning of the annoying part. The "Slackers" start to panic and act humble by saying that they think they will fail. Victims fall for the trick and console the "slackers" when the victims themselves should worry.The race for the Oscars are on, as "Slackers" pull out a fantastic show The last stage is the huge turning of the tables, "Slackers" score distinctions and victims start to get depressed and wonder how in the world "slackers" can do well if they didn't study. A sad ending for Victims.

The Muggers aka Hardcore Robots/ Muggertron/ Lifeless thing/ Anything inhumane
Muggers---> Muggers---> Muggers--> Muggers
The process is rather boring, with explains their lives. Their lives can just be explained in a graph with just a straight line. Rewards are great but sacrifices are equally great.

The Real Slacker aka Sotong/ Victims/ First from bottom/ Scholar with open and closed inverted commas.
Slackers--> Realisation period--> Slackers--> C-grade Actors--> Failures ( Most of the time)

Slackers they just slack and do anything but studying. Realisation period occurs when they find out when exams are coming. This realisation period is generally the week before the actual exam. Third stage is similar to the first stage but the third stage acknowledges the fact that they are screwed but persists. Fourth stage follows immediately as slackers also become C-grade actors. Where they tell the world/themselves they are studying but fail to actually do so. It continues until the day of the exam. Soon after, they get back results and fail at it.

"Slackers" mislead the Slackers. "Slackers" are the fake ones. They also try to mislead the boring people but fail. At the end of the day, Muggers come out top few, "Slackers" are 2nd while the last of all are the victims, the true slackers..

This is a Sad theory but yet happening. So the question is.. Do you think you are a mugger? My answer for myself.. I'm halfway there.

2010-08-25T23:35:00.002+08:00

2nd September my first paper!

Well.. Life was been rather unstable in terms of emotions. Preparing for exams has been my priority for the weeks and i guess i'm rather on schedule. But woah, in order for me to hit my target of 3.8, i must really score very well for all my exams. It won't be too difficult, but neither is a walk in the park. I really really hope i'll be able to be a happy man in poly. All the best to myself!

News in the Spotlight: Youth Olympic Games!

Under lester's influence, initially i felt the YOG would be a failure. After days, i decided to watch the games. It's like any other olympics just that it's in Singapore. The only thing we kinda failed in doing is achieving. I mean LOL! Host country not being in the top 10 list in medals despite the athlete cap or something? But fair play to Singapore for putting up a fight.

China as usual dominates the medal list. I've watched those chinese people play like in Badminton, Diving and stuff. For badminton, i was like watching a rally. The opponent was like smashing and thrashing the shuttlecock while the china girl was just defending. The rally lasted pretty long until i was bored. Can u believe it? That's how long! Soon after, i guess the opponent was like kinda sick and tired of playing with robots. Imagine how much practice was put in. China breeds robots who are like programmed to kick ass. That's like almost super human. Maybe it explains the 30 gold medals.

Cool stuff i witnessed during the YOG period. I saw a Russian Athlete queuing up to change money in Suntec City. The huge figure was like asking the indian uncle for SGD and that i saw the RUSSIA word on the back of his singlet. Awesome! 2nd incident, i saw the Iran Female National team on.... the... MRT! I was shocked as i saw so many of them inside the train and i mean they were like looking at the train surroundings. It's as if Singapore is part of China. LOL! Yeah those were some comments that were heard from some athletes.

Overall, it's a good experience. But my stance is still the same, China is dominating ass. Damn, i don't really want to learn chinese again.

2010-08-24T00:35:00.002+08:00

Looks like only the negative things are worth mentioning, and i guess i've decided to blog.

The older we grow, the more we realise the world is scarce of resources. I mean we can have a lack of gold, money, oil and whatever. But at the end of the day, what everyone really lack is a good friend.

What i define as a good friend is really someone who won't give up on you even when you will. I know even in economics i've learnt that people are only willing to do things for others if the cost of it is relatively low. They stand nothing to lose and some to gain. Good friends are those who see the relationship as everything to gain. Nowadays, it's so hard to actually find someone is willing to help you even when you're down. Everyone wants a good friend, but are we really doing what we can to help another? If so, how can we expect to have a good friend, when we ourselves are too engrossed in being so selfish.

As they say in times of crisis and bad stuff happens, it brings out the worst in others and also the best in some. I've witnessed so many depressing things. At the end of the day, we are alone. It gets me to think about the story i've read before.

A group of people whom each have an extremely long spoon tied to their arms and they are gathered around a large bowl of food. In here, the people cannot feed themselves as the spoon is too long for them to reach for their own mouths. Everyone is in despair and suffering.

However, in another area with the same scenario, the people are actually enjoying themselves and are happy. Why? Cause they actually feed each other with that long spoon. It brings out one important issue here. The world would be a better place if people start to care.

Of course not everything is so straightforward in life. But sometimes, i'm just wondering with so many people out there, how many would be willing to do something for me? I've seen a lot, and maybe it's enough. But there's hope in me which tells me not to give up. The pursuit for university and money and stuff is great, but in the process, what are we losing?

Friends acknowledge that effort. We want to know what you are willing to do for us, not whether you are able or not. Is that so difficult?

2010-08-11T00:35:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

2010-06-10T00:10:00.002+08:00

Everything happens for a reason whether be it revealed or not. Illogical and completely senseless.

2010-06-06T00:19:00.002+08:00

Microecons exam was quite okay but at the same time, stupid dumb mistakes always occur somehow. Okay.. initially i was so damn angry and of course i was aiming for an A. I hope i can still get an A and its still possible.

After browsing through some people's old photos, it got me laughing the hell out of my socks. Some of us looked like drug addicts, kampong villagers, junior monks or even Bak Kut. It was hilarious and got me going bonkers looking at the evolution of men. Okay fine PEOPLE. It's a case of the past which we were embarrassed about. THE UNGLAM SIDE!

Oh well.. now time for my ranting session.

People who philosophise about really obvious things.

Facebook status- " The world is not perfect, FML" or " There is no right or wrong in life"

My reply- WOW thanks for that enriching and truly inspiring quotes you got there, but it took you so long to realise that? While people are developing ideas for inventions and meaningful quotes for people, these primitive people are still stuck in the past.

Also, "If u don't know me, don't judge me" and " there are just somethings you can't take back, no matter how hard u try" and " i may seem happy on the outside, but i'm sad inside".

I feel like kniving myself like the fruits in annoying orange after reading all these dumbass statements. Yes i don't know you, i will judge you cause the world is not perfect. Doesn't it make sense? Only idiots like them think that by judging them, it is considered unethical. But when they judge others, it's okay. Hohoho!

There are somethings u can't take back, no matter how hard u try. It's like me telling others... " Hey did you know that coke contains coke?" YES WE ALL KNOW YOU CAN'T TAKE BACK THINGS. A GREAT EXAMPLE IS YOUR VIRGINITY.

We should help these people from falling into an abyss of stupidity. Their common sense or logic is badly impaired that they didn't realise the sky is blue. I love to see how people gain satisfaction by posting such shallow comments in hope of appearing deep. It's nice to just sit down and observe how many morons putting up a good display to appear deep. Just count the number of idiots who fail and start laughing at them being deep. From proper english, it transforms immediately to hokkien. And then, it's self-explanatory.

I shall end off with a quote, " Life is never easy". Oh oops! Knife! AHHH

2010-05-23T20:03:00.003+08:00

It has been almost a month since i've blogged. Time passes really quickly and what i've learnt about poly has been rather staggering.

Myth 1- Poly is very slack.
Myth Busted... Poly is not slack at all. Just look at our workload.

Myth 2- Poly has pretty girls.
Myth also Busted. We are in desperate demand for pretty girls, which are currently inadequate.

Myth 3- Lectures are full of gamers
Myth busted. It is partially true though but nowdays ppl watch Korean Drama and surf the web instead of solely playing games

Myth 4- Poly students are relatively happier than JC students.
Myth busted. It's only during lunch where poly students are more inclined to temporary release their burden. If not generally, poly students are equally living deprived lives with excellent facilities. Ironic but true.

Oh well.... Poly has really weird people which has really exposed me. I thought i've seen enough, but i guess these calls for more exposure. I've met some nice people but at the same time dicks who are yearning for a thrashing.

Best thing is that i still keep in contact with people like loy zhanfei, junkai, king seng and many others. So relax guys! Don't think i'm so ungrateful. I will remember you morons.. Will see you all again

2010-04-30T20:25:00.002+08:00

Bless my soul! I'm a lonely Soul!

Oh well, it's been a long time since i've blogged. I know that poly life regarding stress and work load is really subjective. If you're contented with a GPA of 2.0, then your workload should be rather light. If you're out to strive for perfection, your workload will surely be increased. Of course there are exceptions who just have talent for their course and can afford to study lesser. I'm not taking anything for granted and really gotta change from secondary school. I don't want to procrastinate. It's nice and fun but it's harmful.

As for poly life, number 1 is socialising. You're gonna spend 3 years here and if we don't socialise, it's gonna be pretty boring. Basically again, we decide our happiness. Well, i made quite a few nice friends and stuff. Poly life can be fun especially if we know how to manage our time. Also, the girls in my school are well, alright? Haha but there's just one who stands out.

Of course i miss my friends from secondary school but it won't be too long before we meet. Poly breaks my friends? haha

2010-04-19T23:14:00.002+08:00

Okay Poly day 1.

It's been rather slacky for today as i met up with lester moh, yanjiang, victor,ee shen and john in NP. From a supposedly buying of textbooks kinda trip, it turned into a tour of Ngee Ann. Of course it was quite funny to know that a lot of cckssians could be spotted all over NP. Basically people whom you see in cckss and seldom talk to them, are talking to you. Sounds weird but yeah its happening.

Poly does give me a good but yet bad vibe. The relaxed atmosphere provides lesser pressure but yet it heaps quite a lot of pressure on you. It's really somewhat like a paradox. Why? No one watches after you and nags at you. That lessens the pressure. However, not having anyone to watch over you is akin to telling you that you're alone. This is freaky cause you get to start being motivated yourself. I know its a sooner or later kinda thing but we'll get used to it.

Here's what i noticed in poly...

1) Polys in general are just like project runway. It gives people an opportunity to display their wardrobe.

2) Certain students dress as if singapore is snowing. I'm really wondering if they have an air con hidden inside their thick clothing.

3) Certain male students are really afraid of getting assassinated. They wear a vest to school! :O Maybe they should try kevlar. It works better!

4) People stare at you for being alone. Ironically, they're alone.

5) I hate getting stared so i look at my phone and play games. I bet many people do that too.

6) Everyone just says hi to each other to stop ppl from staring. O.O

7) Some guys have extremely long and hideous hair which seems like they've hidden their loot in their hair.

8) The fixation with hip hop dance, beat box and six pec continues.

9) Trends are never as it seems.

10) Clubbing should be a CCA. I recommend it to be a CCA since many love it!

11) Liberal views in Poly are certainly an eye-opener.

12) Korean revolution ftw! Theres a korean cultural club! What else can i say?

Okay these are just fun facts and stuff. I guess i'll update more when i'm done with my studying and stuff. For now, stay tuned to more.

2010-04-13T00:57:00.002+08:00

I am totally speechless.

Pretty face as it seems, the rest doesn't seem like what i'm expecting. I got owned with such a surprise! This is truly crazy! But well, i'll just see how things turn out!

The people in poly so far that i've met are seriously another surprise. It wasn't what i was expecting too, but they ain't bad.

What a way to welcome me into poly. I guess it's really the world behind my wall.

Sorry for such a poor quality post, but i'm really in a state of shock now. For those who really wanna know what happened, just ask me personally. LOL!

Ciao guys!

2010-04-11T21:10:00.002+08:00

Flashback to 1953 where the korean war happened.

I bet no one was in the mood for K-pop/drama, everyone was fighting for survival. On the other hand, the North Koreans were desperately trying to kick the south's ass but with the help of the Americans, the tide was overturned.

Forward to 2010. It's a Korean Revolution. North Korea was accused of propaganda to their own people, well it's true. A word of fairness. South Korea has propaganda too! In fact its so powerful that it stretches across asia and even reaches US! It's called K-Pop and K-drama!

I bet at this moment, everyone must be thinking," This guy has completely lost his nuts."

I'm very sorry but it's more like the other way round. The South Koreans have mind controlled everyone to their K-Pop!

Alright the above was just an exaggeration, but seriously, we Singaporeans have been too sucked into dramas that we neglect reality. ( Don't argue and just read before you threaten to bury me with kimchi)

A typical Korean Drama always has a protanganist and his lover. The story revolves around them so much that all bad luck seems to befall on them. The protanganist's father/mother/any kin will just suffer from cancer, another random relative will die from a car crash, his lover will also somehow break off with him. And the camera will zoom so far into the protanganist's face as he cries. It just feels like god was picking on that guy only! I cannot stand overly dramatic shows. One and twice is enough.

Here's the good part for all korean fans, i admit that the actor is handsome. No doubt about it. But when we watch too many dramas, i overheard some girls talking and this was what they said," Omg! Korean guys are so cute lor please!"

On the contrary, an average korean guy is ugly or rather do not match up to what you girls define as cute. Go to Seoul and blindfold your eyes and randomly pick out one dude. In case i get accused of generalising, go ahead and try it for yourself. I've been to Seoul before and i know how an average guy looks like. Of course those on TVs are the extremely charming ones but don't forget that NOT ALL korean guys are hot/cute.

As for K-pop, do we even know what the hell are they saying? All you hear is sarang and see some guys/girls dance and we get sexually excited. Be it the beat is addictive etc, the music sure is crappy. That's totally exploiting us in the face with thrashy music. And what kinda retarded bands are 2pm and 2am. Okay whoever started that band first, credit to them. But the one who change the am to pm or pm to am, deserves to get shot in the face. Outright plagerism.

And it's proven that quite a lot of korean actors/actresses did plastic surgery. I mean they are humans and have flaws, plastic surgery minimizes the flaws. Just a food for thought, you like natural? I have no comments on that, cause for this case it depends on your perspective.

To end off the post and hopefully this isn't my last post before korean fans come knocking on my door (LOL), i don't like K-pop and drama. I admit. And just for any retarded person who is gonna call me a racist or any stupid claims, i suggest you read before you talk.

The power of koreans are just overwhelming that even I do know some korean after listening to so much crap at home. Oh well, no hard feelings for the koreans themeslves!

2010-04-06T19:45:00.003+08:00

Okay i finished first day of my BAOC -->Business & Accountancy Orientation Camp.

It's basically the typical ice-breaking sorta activities and stuff. I kinda started earlier with ee shen to get to know others like john and victor. Soon yanjiang joined in and we started hanging out like a group. LOL! First thing cool was that we all ate mushroom steak for like lunch which i consider my breakfast. After lunch, it was all cheers and games.

Yeah it ain't bad, cause that's the nature of camps. Cheers are inevitable especially in camps like this. I was struggling to keep awake for the day after screwing up my body clock. Finally i survived the heat and fatigue until like 3pm.

My feelings of the whole thing was alright. But even ee shen agreed with this point that the whole ambience of the environment seems pretty laxed. For a slacker like me, i cannot deny that the place just makes you feel free and relaxed such that this feeling became more like guilt. Well O levels was just a preliminary obstacle to give you more options, now that i got what i want, i cannot just let my life screw up by just relaxing. I will be determined myself but with a group of friends who have high ambitions, we can succeed.

2010-04-01T00:13:00.004+08:00

Happy April's fool day.

I've been reading a lot of issues people have with Singapore and Singaporeans which made me laugh. In fact i've decided to share some of my complaints with my dear readers.

1).. Singaporeans and their vocabulary. Singapore is truly multi-racial. No doubt. Singaporeans are so harmonious with the different races that we learn how to curse in the many languages. This includes Malay, English, Chinese and our favourite dialect Hokkien.

2) Young Singaporeans have poor knowledge of showbiz in Hollywood in general. The old typical Tom cruise, Brad Pitt and maybe Leonardo Di Caprio. If not in general, you'd ask them like heard of Anne Hathaway? They'll be like," What is that?". You'll seldom hear people in Singapore talk about Meryl Streep/ Sandra Bullock as good actresses etc.

3) Young Singaporeans have poor Music Knowledge in general. Ask them Oasis. See what they tell you. "Orh! The one in desert right?" Even mainstream music, not many people know muse, the academy is, AlterBridge, Audioslave and John Mayer. Even genres like R&B, people do not know what it stands for. After Michael Jackson's death, people start to listen more to his songs. I'm close to tears man.

4) Singaporeans have a horrible knowledge for Soccer. The most typical thing you'll hear is Man U, Liverpool, Arsenal and Chelsea. Ask them do you know what's Nottingham Forest? Some can answer. How about Gillingham? AFC Wimbledon? It's sad to always hear that.

5) Singapore's typical definition of Western Food has beans, coleslaw, chicken chop and 14 fries.

6) Our beaches are a letdown. Sentosa is our best. Can't beat other countries. Worst? Look at Sembawang Beach. Is there even such a thing? Yes there is, but the beach is total mood killer.

7) Singaporeans reply when we complain about stuff like beaches,entertainment and sports. Singapore small what!

8) Our accent is great. Monotonously Great.

9) Singaporean relatives aren't relatives. They compete about positions in jobs and play horse-racing. In this context, we kids are the horses. The race is about the PSLE scores, O-levels, A-levels and jobs. Can you feel the warmth?

10) Our TV Channels are abysmal. The rest is self-explanatory.

11) Singaporeans can't live without their mobile phones.

12) Singaporeans complain about everything including the weather, their mom and even themselves. I'm already complaining about this.

13) We are damn scared of this dumb number because of superstition.

14) Singaporeans use bombastic words for wrong stuff and when you rebut them, they say i know.

1st April is about to end. 2nd is coming up. Soon 6th comes and Poly camp starts, and 19th April poly actually begins. It won't be long, but yeah i guess the passion for blogging will still remain strong. Hopefully my hair doesn't become long and hideous. Haha

2010-03-18T23:34:00.002+08:00

World Watch With Chasper

Today's topic: Behaviours/groups on facebook which annoys the hell outta me.

I've been looking and surfing bla bla bla. People talking about life etc. Some good some bad. The good ones are generally neutral, but some of the bad ones are downright idiotic. Let's zoom into this term: FML which also means Fuck My Life.

FML was first introduced to me with a certain blog which allows people to express why their lives are so "fucky" (Wow new term). So i go ahead and read it. Basically people are ranting over the smallest of reasons like a girl was waving to me and when i walked closer, she was waving at another guy FML. These kinda posts are truly deserving of a punch. Why? It's like so lame wanting to get yourself angry over such a trivial matter. Nowadays things are getting more out of hand, to the extent of being FML over not being able to find your pencil case etc. If not being to find your pencil case really gives u a good reason to be FML-ly, then just jump down. The worst part is that all these FML posts has to be on my homepage for facebook when various people abuse FML for all those retarded things. Life is not worth fucking all the time ( please think straight).

For those who have a better reason to FYL ( F*** your Life), your FML post will turn into a joke for most readers. The very reason is because NOBODY GIVES A DAMN ABOUT YOUR LIFE. So, don't bother FMLing everywhere. I don't know if people feel this way, but it's annoying. Imagine how many grievances one person can have a day and imagine how many times the person has to curse FML FML FML. Even Karma can't stand them.

One last irritating behaviour. Interesting Facebook group called "Unless you've lived my life; dont judge me "

One fact for those people: People judge other regardless of race.

And no one can live your life but people still judge. It's human nature, so stop complaining. I gave my friends the example of how a typical ah lian would react to such. I'll give the overview now.

Ah lian searches facebook and saw the group. Joins the group" Unless you've lived my life, don't judge me". Ah lian talks to her friend on the phone instantaneously after that and talks about another girl being very close to her boyfriend.

Ah lian: Wa lao that girl damn bitch leh.

Friend: Why?

Ah Lian: See her face know liao lor. Somemore hor, she flirt with my guy leh.

Basically, it's ironic but logical. Human nature is at work. Even our parents will judge a group of guys with long hair smoking and abusing profanities. They may say that the group of guys are wasting their life. You never know that those guys could be harvard graduates. Hard to believe but at least there is a possibility.

Judging is part and parcel of life so stop your chit chat about how judgmental people are. I used to do it, but it make sense about " Judged not and you will not be Judged." We can start being so morally upright and criticse other people for judging you and the next moment you could be judging another person. Our brains are for us to think, think before you speak. Especially in this topic. Here's my challenge to those who want to challenge me--------

Don't Judge others in every aspect and i'll allow you to complain and rant. If you can do that, i'll join you to rant and raise hell at the person/people who judged you even if it includes me.

I guess i've just said my piece. This meant no insult to anyone again. Any characters in this blog are purely incidental and i regret that it has any resemblance to anyone dead or alive. LOL! I got this from TV.

2010-03-17T23:14:00.002+08:00

These are totally random photos. LOL! I'm kinda lazy to post anything, so enjoy!

2010-03-12T23:52:00.002+08:00

First and foremost, i'd like to thank every fan reading this blog even if you disagree with it. The hit rating and the comments are very encouraging, which spurs me to even blog more. Once again, with honor, thanks!

Recently, i've been in some disagreements in my family and even witnessed disagreements somewhere else. After thinking about it, i guess that the problem is truly none other than generation gap. It's like the more we children explain, the more agitated our parents get, in return it pisses us off. The fight gets bigger and bigger until most of the time i tell myself to back off. Parents born in their 1950s,1960s,or even 70s, expect us to back off because we are younger and less matured. I understand this is the time when we teenagers are the most rebellious and rash, but i'm sure we do make good decisions even in the most crucial of times. Sadly, we don't get recognised for that. I mean parents care for us but they just don't explain themselves enough for us to comprehend.

Example, when parents compare us with their so called "ideal" children, it's just so depressing. They expect us to be better. However, when we compare our parents, they say that we are fortunate to have them. Firstly i'll like to highlight that yes i do love my parents but that there are some disagreements here and there. In our lives, we always tend to get very contradicting statements from our parents.

One example ( credit given to the Liar In Our Life, the book), our parents encourage us to be honest. When we lie to them and get caught, they punish us and highlight the importance of being honest. However, when some auntie for example gives us a toy for our present as a birthday, and we don't like it. We honestly tell them we don't like it. We get punished for being rude. As a young child, it's kinda contradicting and we do get confused. So basically, the disagreement starts even when we're young.

Things get a lot more chaotic when we're grown up. Like the idea of going out at night, friends you hang out with, the use of handphone, the idea of relationships and many more. Our generation is a lot more expressive and less conservative. Answering back to our parents to us is considered reasonable but to our parents is unacceptable. That already causes a lot of trouble, what more when our diplomatic reasoning seems to be a challenge to their authority.

One thing i'm particularly against is the idea of being in a relationship. Frankly, what's wrong being in love and expressing it? Crushes and love is natural during teenage years, even our parents' can't deny that. I know that they're being overly paranoid that i'll make girls pregnant whatsoever. I mean yeah guys can get horny, but i feel i'm matured enough to be responsible for such and won't do such things. Plus my grades weren't affected, so what's the big argument over? I mean since we're young, why not venture into love and experience it? Heartbreak will come one day, but at least we're mentally prepared in the future. Eventually, it boils down to being adventurous and expressiveness.

I appreciate their goodwill, but we're lacking communication here. Lack of communication leads to lack of understanding which leads to a lack of trust. From there, things can go wrong. Any moron knows that, true. We're so caught up with our own separate lives that we don't even sit down and speak to each other properly. In fact, i'm pretty sure that our parents are not the ones who understands us the most. It's sad but true. In reality, i'm sure we don't really know our parents well either. So it's just the love and parent bond that is connecting us. I know our lives are very hectic and sorts, but sometimes it will do a lot of benefit by just getting to know our children and parents well.

There are just 1001 things that we can complain about, but this is the last example i shall touch on. It's the matter of respect. We naturally respect them as our parents due to love. In their generation, respect is a necessity towards their elders. In our generation, respect is only due to whoever who deserves it. No one loves to be told what to do without reasoning. For me, for elders, i'll just have a slightly higher respect for them just because they are my elders. But to be honest, i still don't understand the rationale behind all this traditions. I respect my parents because they raised me and taught me values. Alright, fair enough respect is given. Sometimes CERTAIN elderly people demand our respect when they're being unreasonable. I'm not trying to be some asshole or whatsoever, but how can you demand it like that? The bottomline is simply that we need reasons for respect which shows us why respect is deserved. No offence but this applies to all age groups for respect.

This ain't supposed to be a scolding session but rather something for everyone to think about. Yes we can get all pissed off when our parents scold us, but shouldn't we at least give a damn to think in their perspective? We show them we are matured enough to even put ourselves in their shoes, which gives them a little something to think about. We can be wrong at times, but i feel we deserve to understand the reason behind all the scoldings. Some experts put partial blame on parents for their children rebelling. True indeed. Parents aren't any more perfect than us, but we learn as we go along. Communication helps to minimize all these misunderstandings, but still it does happen. It can also be an ego problem when parents are wrong but refuse to admit so. And we, children, refuse to admit wrong because we are too stubborn at times. Whatever the reasons so, i'd suggest we remember this.

Never let anything of lesser value endanger anything of great value to you. Family ties and friendships are like that. If your ego which is standing in the way, let go of it. Consider what means more to you and decide. "Friends are the Family we choose for ourselves", and since family is something given to us when we were born, we can't change that fact. They are the ones who help shape our lives. They can't be replaced neither can we be replaced, so when both parties were to quarrel again, bear this in mind. It may sound idealistic but at least give it a shot. Yeah, once again thanks to my dear readers for your support!

2010-03-09T01:21:00.002+08:00

Today's topic: Flirt

Food for thought.

Definition of Flirt: to court triflingly or act amorously without serious intentions; play at love; coquet.

Well.... To simplify this whole sentence, it means to express attraction in actions/words without being serious? In other words it's just being quite frivolous.

Definition of Flirt in Singapore

: For a person from one gender to communicate to another person from an opposite gender or more. Doesn't apply to person who using this word.

Thesaurus for the noun Flirt in Singapore: Bitch, Bastard, Asshole, *&@&#^&%$& and worse.

Commonly used sentences/phrases in Singapore including the word Flirt: ( Please mind the horrible english used)

" Wah lao, she damn bitch sia. Go sms other guys. Then when i sms other girls, she say i flirt."

" Eh you damn flirt sia"

" Flirter leh you"

After this analysis, we've come to realise we're too anal about guys/girls having a comfortable chat with the opposite gender ( Applies to straight people for this). True that sensitivity kills us whenever we see an sms with a person from the same gender as you having a talk with your perhaps loved one. It's something i myself find myself in a helpless state when this happens. Similarly others do get enraged when such happens. But i find that this is really interesting to see how this has become one of our all-time favourite complaints in almost every conversation.

There will always be a Culprit and victim. In almost every case, you yourself (if you are involved) will be the victim. The culprit will be criticized for a conversation with the one you care about so much that i'm pretty sure the " culprit" won't have an easy time coping with sneezing. It's also interesting to see how hypocritical we are as in life, we'll never only play on one side our whole life. Be objective. Isn't that true? Of course this practice isn't entirely bad but it's kinda funny as i think of it.

So i guess love operates in a lot of interesting ways as we all know it. Basically, we are all flirts and all Victims of it. Cause we cannot eradicate this from our world! If we do, life is gonna suck with you talking to one girl/guy your whole life. There's a very very extremely thin line between flirt and socialising. To some people it means the same damn thing, but to me, it's whole lot of difference. At the end of the day, we just need some trust and some tolerance. If you don't expect to eat people's shit, don't make people eat your shit. However in this case, it's impossible. So verdict?

Let's all relak and take a break. Not always girls/guys are flirting.

2010-03-07T23:12:00.003+08:00

Well today i went to giant with my parents after paying up for the NP school fees.

Memories of the past started to rush into my head. Bad ones though. I went in like i was fighting a war. Why? The fact that i might see annapan and other supervisors or even the stupid chairman. The memories of me packing those dumb sardines or even pasta was quite deep. When i was walking down the aisle, i think of leslie packing toilet paper with those annoying chinese new year songs. No offence though, but that was indeed what flashed in my mind. Thoughts of yongjie packing mandarin oranges at one part was accompanied with that. When i reached yongjie's old section, the whole thing was missing.

Finally now that i'm out of that place, i can say this in peace. I noticed so much slacking and even i myself on the second half of the first day began to slack. Initially i worked hard, until i realised so many of the people were slacking. This though has a very good reason behind these actions. No reward or even credit is given to employees for slogging. Only scoldings and even punishments are given when they are slow. Pay is low to locals. The pay is halved for foreign workers. $2.50 an hour is indeed shitty. If thats the case, where the hell is the motivation to even work? All the passion is destroyed by just the nature of the job, what more if the pay is shit. True that the skill required for the job isn't worth a lot, but well $2.50 is bullshit. I understand that its a blue-collar job, but well without an education, these poor people have to withstand the poor working conditions and the demand of the job. At least i have a way out, but this is truly a learning experience. Pressure from the bosses are passed down the departments and eventually the ones at the bottom of the chain is the biggest loser ( Not that slimming competition). No recognition nor compliment for hard work, it just makes work a lot more depressing. Eventually people resort to actions like to skive during work. And sometimes, if there's nothing to do, bosses will just want their employees to pretend like they're doing something. Isn't it a bit ridiculous? It's like trying to exploit every cent out of the employees. When there's nothing to do, just let them relax.

It's not supposed to be a criticism but just a view from what i observed. If employers do want maximum output from their employees, the best way is via gratitude. I understand it's not always possible, but at least it works most of the time.

At the end of the day, i walked out of giant with my sushi and my stuff with satisfaction. No more wearing that uniform and even to wipe shelves. Degrading as it is, i'll just take it as a lesson. No education is really very harmful and leaves people to desperation. This is something we can't change as long as it's in a capitalist society. Long story but well i'll just munch on my sushi and ignore the world.

I'm not superman. I can't always be helping people. That's my limitation.

2010-03-03T23:09:00.002+08:00

Just now i had nothing to do, so i decided to read di hao's blog archives to find the photo of chee kiat with his obscene hilarious photo. As i was searching for it, i've decided to read it. I was surprised to see my own name in his blog with an additional names who were always troublemakers. LOL! His blog archives are just like an archives or rather a history of all the retarded ideas and inventions i've came up with. My number one accomplice was king seng for 3/7. I still recall and with the help of di's blog, a picture of singapore youth olympics. Inside that picture had 3 girls who were dressing up in dance costumes and what i did was to cut out the face of a bodybuilder and pasted it on one of the girls. It officially went straight to the notice board.

2nd dumb thing i did was to give most of the people in our class nicknames. And list goes on and on. It really makes me laugh my ass off when i think of how our sec 3 life went. We history students only had our first and the last supplementary lesson with mr Tan Jun Jie. 3/7 + 3/5 made him so pissed that we never had a history sup again. With all our stupid practices, it made us turn daidi and poker cards legal. Early morning, king seng and i would be the first few sitting in the parade square proudly playing daidi as we wait for the next person.

It's always di hao who reaches 3rd. With another accomplice for doing retarded things is mr loy. Not the real one but zhan fei. Yeos are just like that, LOL! And another memorable thing is the period nearing the end of recess where lester moh would be disturbing anyone with his dance moves or smacking people with his palms and WOOO!

Let me end with this very interesting battle which resembles Tom & Jerry. Jia Lun VS Chii Ming

Chii ming has always been trying to slap jia lun's breasts and always succeeds. Jia lun playing as Tom, coincidentally can't seem to get Chii Ming ( Jerry). As you know, we've been watching that cartoon since the start of sec 4. It makes me laugh with jia lun's expression and shouts out a battlecry " OI!" then he gives chase.

3 cheers to 4/7. Credited to only good memories of it.

2010-03-02T23:45:00.003+08:00

What exactly defines as facts? After reading a book of liars, it just made my thoughts a lot more clearer. Truth is the opinion in your perspective that you define as what you so called "Truth". We can be lied to and still believe it, it's all because we are mentally lazy to actually scrutinise everything others say. Sometimes, lies can come in the most unconventional ways and apparently it has happened. Two sides of people who between themselves know what is the REAL truth and the spectators like us are just reading in with what we call the Opiniated Truth.

This is truly getting confusing. Both sides badmouth each other only leaving the spectators to face a serious crossfire. All i can say is that, since we can never get the REAL Truth, we should just leave it to them to kill each other. Intervening for a good cause can always land you in hot soup and eventually lead to a full-scale war.

And as long as this world exists,mentalities of our generation can only get looser. Conservative is no longer a decent word, in fact its more of a taboo word. I can't bear to see how outrageous certain comments from people can get and their mannerisms. Excuses are truly dime a dozen. Feeble excuses just shows how pathetic you are to cover up your own behaviours that you are ashamed of.

Even now the value of friendship is nothing but a value of a car, rather for most people. It can only depreciate after new cars keep coming around. To give up friends who are worth a damn, its like amputating your limbs. Gosh, even the term friendship is being misused so frequently that it turns into a joke. The term " Friend" used to be a person you could rely on. Now the term "Friend" is a person whom you know but don't talk too often. What a drastic change! No wonder now there is such an event called World Friendship day, where the whole world are friends due to our lousy definitions of that word. Let's just say what comes around goes around. No matter whether you have a religion or u believe in karma or not, it's gonna happen. You treat people like disposable lunchboxes jehiel boh uses? ( No offence boh) Then be prepared to be spend some time being inside a lunchbox as you get thrown around. I guess everything evens out at the end.. So go ahead even if your conscience doesn't strike you. Just don't be complaining that the life is unfair and all sorts, because you earned this marvelous award.

For any unhappy readers, please do not be so anal about it. There is no direct reference to anyone nor any fictional characters. It's just a general observation. As i've mentioned, only i know what is truth so don't read in too much that you think this post is for any of you.

2010-02-25T02:34:00.002+08:00

Damages are done and words were said. I shan't talk about the bad things but rather talk about the good things. Looks like mass effect 2 has taught me something. You can really choose your outcome with the actions and words you say. With all the argument, i believed i was right initially until being realised i was misled. It was almost like another war and i had a choice to preserve my pride and ego and fight on. Suddenly something told me to just give up my pride and let it go since i was misled and that if i continued, i would be wrong.

Sometimes if you can stop straying on the wrong path by giving up your pride, we should not hesitate. I also learned to step up and take the courage to apologise. It may seem simple but, its really tough at the moment. I'm glad that at least we know now that the air is clear. At least on my side. Just because of that statement, it turned everything false which made me even more fed up. We were utterly owned in the ass. No point hiding it. I'd rather step up and apologise for every single wrong i've done.

Well sorry guys for what i've said.... It may be a unintentional accident but yet the damage was severe. It almost turned into a full-blown conflict but thankful both sides were willing to back out. Rather than to whine about how we were cheated, i'd take the positives that we've cleared up a misunderstanding and actually forsaken our pride. One more friend is better than one more enemy. Well-said but i almost had 3 more enemies with one being my good friend for 4 years. Can you believe it? Sometimes even the most accidental mistake could cause such an uproar. I'm pleased to hear that at least he has forgiven me. Whereas for friendship wise, i'm not too sure how he treats me. That's my only loss i guess.

Take a deep breath and step back. You'll see the bigger picture. I'm looking at it right now and realised what a huge mess i was in. No longer anymore. Lesson learnt.

2010-02-18T00:02:00.002+08:00

I watched valentines' day today!

The movie in my opinion was great, though critics said it was not good. Taylor swift played a minor role being a bimbo, which i nevertheless enjoyed.. Emma roberts was very attractive too.. In fact most of the actresses in the show did make us guys feel entertained throughout the movie. Especially certain funny parts, LOL! At the end of the day, i was thinking whether i can get such a nice love ending at the end of the day?

Like what the person said in the movie, just marry your best friend. Haha! Although that seems good, but well its hard to force feelings and all these. I guess this movie left many of us wondering about various issues about love. I myself, have so many questions, but i guess i'll just wait. If your character and looks are good, you will definitely shine out. I'm not making any reference to myself alright!

I'll just be myself and do my thing.

Fyi, money issue is somewhat solved as now i got a mini job which last me a few days but at least i do get extra money and with jk's mom and TBC still owing me my salary, i should be able to last till April. I can enjoy! WOOOOO! Obviously, the first key to get ready for my poly is to save money and to manage my own finance. Why? It's because my course is Banking & Financial Services. You don't see a banker relaxing at one corner and splurging on rubbish right?

Currently what's going on with me? I'm starstruck. Seriously. Not any 303! with katy perry song but the true meaning of it. After valentines' day, you'll get it. Esp the guys. It turned even a gay like king seng to get all crazy, what more me?

2010-02-15T23:45:00.002+08:00

Chinese new year has been relatively boring and sad. Angpaos were getting bigger but the money inside is getting smaller in value. Reunions were all about comparing results. And sad to say, i've become more concerned about what's inside the angpao rather than to enjoy the reunion. That's what most people do, but well who cares.

Let's look at february.. It has many people's birthday here and nice movies like valentines' day. Along with kenneth's chalet, i think time will really fly. Not long it would be march, our final month before the start of poly.

1 change i noticed about people. Nowadays people are starting to change a lot. I mean its only 1 month and things changed as if everyone has not met up for 2 years. And desperation is blindly control some people. Frankly, i guess its no point for me to give advice anymore. Advice is never needed to people who are blindly controlled. People only listen to who you are rather than what you say. So i guess.... sometimes kind intentions are always being taken for granted and all of them pay the price. We should learn our mistakes and also to learn from others.. Do we need a consequence which is irreversible to befall on us before we finally realise? Another thing is that, doesn't mean that some people are sad, they can do anything to make themselves happy. Of course even if it is ethical, we have to understand that it may not be the best decision. Too much of it can really make things horrible. The simplest analogy is this.. if you are dying from thirst, you drown yourself with water. Worst of all, you drink salt water. Because of your thirst, you can't distinguish what type of water it is. It all boils down to the desperation which makes your mind all unclear.

At the end of the day, we all need to learn this powerful word which no one seems to really put into practise.

It's called : THINK

2010-02-09T21:16:00.003+08:00

The first step to the real world is a bloody contract.

We are forever governed by some stupid paper. Oh well, i can just quit my job easily. Problem is whether i will get paid or not. I'd better be paid man.. Most importantly, i'm kinda looking forward to poly. I really hope its gonna be a wonderful experience. It's frustrating trying to stay at home looking at your calendar with no money. I do look forward to the camps as well.

Alright.. This week has been relatively bad for most of us. While Jk, Leslie, Yongjie and i were suffering in our job, JC students were approaching the end of their orientation and started mugging. To counter the unhappiness, we have chinese new year approaching. Which eliminates bad luck.

5 key measures to ensure you have a prosperous and happy new year:

1) Just wear red even if you look like a huge ang pao

2) If you're feeling that you've been hit by bad luck, sweep it away. And remember not to sweep it to your fan, as the wind will blow it back to you.

3) Stare at mandarin oranges and look at yongjie. That will motivate you to stay happy as handling mandarin oranges is equivalent to rotten luck.

4) Don't look at this because the number is an unlucky one.

5) Try to pull your yu-sheng as high as possible. The higher you get, the more prosperous you will be. Remember luck can never be shared. So if u see your neighbour pulling his yu-sheng to around 5 stories, pull to 6 stories.

That's about the happiness guide. Any queries should be diverted to your local fengshui master nearby. Terms and conditions apply

2010-02-08T00:42:00.002+08:00

Chasper V.S Work.

Day 6 of battle...

Looks like 6 days of work felt like 3 months. I looked at the calendar everyday and its still in february. It's good but it meant that i have to keep working. My patience has to be stretched. I unintentionally pissed off the boss of the company by taking out my phone to see the time. He said i was slacking and said "dont waste my time". From then onwards, he kept staring at me with an annoying face. I kindly returned him a sickening face which makes it a "friendly" working relationship.

At the end of the day, i would love to get a nice job with a decent pay with no stupid clauses and a conducive working environment and a not so NIAO boss. That will really make an employee feel more welcomed and at home to a company. I'm really wondering, how do employers expect employees to give their all for the company when they have shitty working conditions with a pay worthy of a PS3 Set including CPF. Wow.. i've gotta say our country do need to have a minimum wage rule. $5 dollars an hr? Carrying stuff to and fro, taking stocks, providing customer service, backing up for other roles and even to work for 6 days a week 8 hrs a day. Seems like its no big deal. Well it ain't a big deal but man.. we are temporary staff who are part timers who are students who are just earning extra cash. You expect me to earn a profit for the company?

I'm sure you do. But i don't care. It's only logical for you to get full cooperation from your employees if they are happy. When they are unhappy and you still expect progress, it's not gonna work out. Even if it does, it will be short-term. I don't know how but all i know is that, i will find a better job. I don't need a boss to be so kind and considerate nor the pay to be $2632523752358732589325 an hour. Of course if i have it, it will be a bonus. (especially the huge amount of money an hour :D) But at least be reasonable. Nvm its just like that.

Route to happiness: Quit job.
Buses available to happiness: The long way is to tahan the ride. OR take the express service quit now and pay more.

Choice: Still blank for now.

Money makes it hard to decide. Hmmm.........

2010-02-03T22:03:00.002+08:00

2nd day of job.. 300th post and 4 years of existance for this blog. Well the work is kinda dreadful cause IMM has poor working environment. I'm there feeling so dead and without leslie, i'll be lying on the packs of rice like an soul-less person. The annoying chinese new year songs keep blasting into my ears and that the standing and walking is really tiring. With a pathetic salary of $5 an hour for an 8hr job day and 6 days a week, i gotta sacrifice so many things just to follow the contract. Gosh i wonder how long this will take. It's kinda hard to keep telling yourself life will be good. I know it should be, but i really hope i dont have to work on march. Feb is all i can push myself to handle, if i still have to work on march. I will just get my 700 dollars and go. oh man.. please!

FYI, Junkai works as the guy handling the weighing corner for prices, Leslie is some department which is similar to mine just that he works as a non-food staff and Yongjie packs.. mandarin oranges. LOL!

2010-02-01T21:15:00.002+08:00

Well i don't know whether to rejoice or to be sad.. I've got a job with Jk, Leslie and yongjie. We'll be working from tomorrow until 31st March. I really hope i'll enjoy it. 6 days work week oh boy! Money will definitely be coming in.. but i really hope the chinese speaking people don't really be so chinese speaking. Please english is a universal language, just use it.

But guys.. you can still call me out, but do ask at least a days' time earlier. I will have one day off, i will just say when i'm free i guess. For the time being, i really hope the job will be good enough.

2010-01-27T23:30:00.002+08:00

Well i guess i've been quite down recently.. With many problems such that i've decided i should share my problems with my dear readers. Even a strong man has his weak points.

Let me start of by just saying this. Lack of money is the root to all problems. Why? Singapore already has so little things to do for leisure. And most of the little things require money. Money also directly proportional to your happiness. You can't buy happiness that's what people say. I'll say you can buy happiness. Of course you need your friends and family etc. But what i'm saying is that.. it gets me bored at home and freaking pissed especially when things require money. Even a proper sports game need money. Funniest thing of all is that, we work to earn money to survive. To survive, we need money.

It leads us to my second unhappiness. My taste buds are rioting inside of me. I can tell badly. To get non-homecooked food, you need money again. Unless i grow my own farm and rear my own cows. Then again, we NEED MONEY! So basically, i had better start earning some money to be happy. In the meantime, its either i bear with unhappiness or make myself happy.

Solution: I think i've decided to make use of those services that are "free" or rather things i'm not made to pay for. Facebook, Blogger, L4D2, CS, MSN, Fifa, TV, Homecooked food and others will be what i have to survive on before i start earning money till april.

Heres the flow chart

Work---to---> Earn money----to--->Retire------to----> Not work

This doesn't just confuse a mat, but yeah it does pose a question for life. Oh boy, i dread to work, but looks like i'm down to no choice. Now we can gladly say, Money is the root to all evil. Money itself is already in every way an asshole. We need it like drugs. Drugs need money. So let's see who is more addictive? LOL!

At the end of the day, money like fire is a good servant and a bad master. Money is also a heartbreaker and a sweetheart to different ppl. How do we solve this problem? I can't see how this can be ever solved unless we go back to the ages of barter trading.

2010-01-26T01:00:00.003+08:00

i guess heres the encyclopedia of my current life and view about certain things. Here goes!

A- Aerospace Engineering/mechanics (whatever)

With so many ppl all applying to be pilots, i'm kinda sceptical about it. If the so many people are going to be pilots and all of them wanna applying for SIA, who's gonna be the passenger?

B- Boh Tuang Hwee Jehiel

I know that isn't a problem or a product name. He's a guy. What i'm concerned is truly about his

issues with hygiene. Not forgetting army is just in 2 years time.

C- Chinese and C5

I'm sure this isn't new for most of you. This language has proved to be a killer for many and i'm one of the victims. With all those confusing strokes and sides, it does get most of us screwed. And i was pretty sure, i failed second time round for chinese exam. Tough.. tsk

D- Dominy and its derivatives.

Yes yes.. don't get too excited. It's my middle name and the most commonly called by males from 4/7 who are so deprived and gets overly-excited over a middle name. Apparently, i give ppl nicknames and that the nickname i got is my name. Very fascinating indeed!

E- EZ- Link Card

That's the hardest part of leaving secondary school life. Bus fares get jacked up so high and MRTs will just become another form of ERP. Adult fare will kill us especially with those people who has a life. First step of financial difficulties.

F- Friends

That's another hard part. Sounds sad but most people are leaving me. I'm only left with the people going to the same path as me. How many are they? Also, its a good thing as new friends will appear.

G- Go away lah!

Fyi, thats a quote which is always said by jason siow kalmatos. That famous quote will go down in history as the most boring, non-innovative and non-offensive quote ever. It just makes us laugh. Non-stop.

H- Heroes the TV show

I've kinda lost track of the seasons. I only remember the japanese guy who says YATAAA and looks like a ramen chef ! and hayden panettiere the Cheerleader who just can't seem to die. Damn if they're gonna have one more season, i'll rather watch polo boys.

I- Ice-caps in the Poles are melting.

Global warming. That causes it. I don't want those ice-caps to turn into water and start making me wet. Global Flooding will just turn the world into a fish pond. I don't want to thread water my entire life. Nor do i wanna fly on an aeroplane dodging falling buildings.

J- Jokes of the YEAR 2008/2009

Wenjie is cuming. And... Yongjie looks like david archuleta. O Level restricts notes to be brought into the exam hall, but yongjie brought a 2 dollar note. I guess.. this is L-O-L.

K-Korean Invasion

For people like lester and I, lets brace ourselves for a Korean Revolution. South Korea's KPOP and Dramas are sucking people in so badly that they are obsessed. With North Korea's missiles threat, looks like the world's in for a total Kinvasion. Plastic Surgery FTW!

L- Love

Does you good and does you bad. I really wonder how ppl can't even pronounce L.O.V.E.

i hope u guys get what i mean.

M- Mats and Minahs.

This problem cannot be solved and its worth a good laugh after reading those jokes. A typical mat should be wearing a trucker cap with a guitar with skinny jeans. Favourite haunt? Void Deck. Doing what? Smoking, Shouting and being nothing but a nuisance. Minahs are just the female versions who are just a little better. For your info, Malay not equal to Mat okay. So this ain't racist at all.

N- Ngee Ann Poly

My Personal Best Poly choice.Enough Said.

O- Osim

If u noticed, there so many Osim U-papa, Osim U-shutup, Osim U-ican't think of any many and many U-products. Are U-getting dizzy?

P- Parents teachers meeting

Oh boy oh boy. I miss those sessions where the teacher will always look at my mother smiling and thinking of how to mince his/her words properly to not sound rude. Also, i miss the " Chasper has potential... BUT...." then after the but will have an onslaught. Ho ho ho

Q- QOO

Jk's favourite drink is also a very nice drink. Sadly, it's slowly diminishing from the shelves of supermarkets.

R- Rest and Relax

Poly has it. Jc doesn't. Hahahahahahahahahaha

S- Sekit Sekit. Sial Lah. Siol.

Commonly used words by "you know who". It gets amusing when you hear it with an accent.

Never gets old.

T- Taylor Lautner.

The guy with the crappy hairstyle who shot to fame just because of cutting his hair and getting a six pec. That werewolf boy has also aimed taylor swift. I like wolves, but he is not a wolf i like. New Urban Wolf.

U- Unintentional Messages on Phone

After having my new temporary phone, i started to send blank messages and stupid messages by accident due to having the backspace so near the send button. Touch screen mind you. Eg.

I tried typing sweet dreams, dictionary gave me sweet erections. I almost sent it. Phew!

V- Valentines' day

Every lonely soul feels the way i do. Lonely again on V's day. But this time, there is an additional group. Th chinese! Well, imagine having Valentines' day on the same day as Chinese New year. What a pain in the ass

W- Wanking

Not me. But that was the most frequently used word in 4/7 to emotionally degrade someone.

It's an obscene action which guys laugh at and girls fear of. Disgraceful and dishonourable as it is, we know where this word originates from. You know who you are.

X- X?

I'll leave this for speculation. Cause there are too few words with that.

Y- Yong Jie

It's not a problem. It's not a blessing. But it's a virus. It makes you stick out your finger and makes you tap the person next to you non-stop until u give attention. Another celebration is similar to that of a kallang wave just that it requires every alternating person to groove their body up and the other's body down. This is a highly addictive sport which the end-product is a series of contagious laughter which no one can stop.

Z- Zebras. ( Can't think of anything else)

They're kiasu. Why? Cause they like to be black and white at the same time. Hahahahahaha.

Thats the end of my beloved post. Hope it will inject some humour in your life.

2010-01-22T22:13:00.003+08:00

I guess i'll postpone my own version of encyclopedia A-Z of my life to tomorrow and for today, i'm just gone through something i don't know how to react first time.

Well yeah i kinda confessed, but i guess things were just not to be. Love requires no logic at all. Very true indeed. When you want somethings badly, you just don't get it. That's the ultimate tragedy about it. It's a long long test for me after mending my ways. Sometimes it's just so hard taking the hard way out rather than the easier way. The easier way to me is just too unethical in a way and also, nothing good comes out of it. I'd rather do it the old-fashion way of having a long and sweet relationship. The more i crave for it, the more distant away it seems from me. Ultimately happiness isn't really something selfish. Rather than to keep forcing her, i'd rather be friends without any unhappiness in her. I understand the feeling of being guilty of breaking hearts and such, it's better to pull out. No matter how challenging it is, i've gotta be up to it.

I still do stick to my belief that love should still respected and sorts. Happiness is really directly proportional to love and of course vice versa. I wouldn't really say i'm going through hell now but it's still a tough time to get through. I wouldn't bear to see her get hurt again and that i guess being single for her could be the better option.

I can argue for all i want with a thousand and one whys and what ifs, but the truth is that, usually decisions are really hard to be turned around. I was defeated. Not by logic nor argument, but simply by love. How can i refute that? I don't feel bitter but in fact i do respect the decision. Success and failure, they are really part and parcel of life. On the bright side, i shouldn't always be looking at how unlucky i am or whatsoever but rather it could be an beginning to something new and could be even better? I don't rule that out, but i'm sure i'll get over it.

I don't know how to show how i love you, and i'm sure it doesn't matter either. I'd say the best way to show it is by respecting what you want rather than to insist on showing how i can love u. So i guess, that's all i'll be saying for this whole matter. I really wish you happiness and that yeah you can still talk to me whatever happens. If you're reading this, i want you to know i don't have to love you as a girlfriend, but i'll still be there for you if you ever need me.

I guess i'll end off by saying this.. Life is like a dick, sometimes it gets hard for no reason. Haha!

2010-01-20T22:22:00.002+08:00

I guess i better stop slacking and start working out. I'm also waiting for the results for the posting then i'll decide what to do. Prepared for NP already. I really do wonder how life in poly will be like, i hope it will be very very enjoyable.

The more and more i think about it, i'm at loss. I can't imagine your response. I really do hope to not make any more mistakes. The more i continue to type, i just can't seem to think of anything else to write. I'll just chill and do my best to pursue my happiness. This will be an ultimate test of perseverance and patience. Even so, it does not guarantee success. Nonetheless, as the facebook tip of the day said, the worst part of life is waiting for someone but the best part of it is that that someone is worth waiting for. I couldn't agree more. You're worth it

2010-01-19T23:09:00.002+08:00

Well i was thinking about some stuff today and it got me thinking that one thing makes a lot of difference.

For example, one guy can be the world's most romantic guy and confesses to a girl. Two scenarios, one the girl likes him and the other which the feeling is not reciprocated at all. The reactions are very DIFFERENT!

So i was thinking, where would i fall under? Obviously i'm not that romantic but i would say reasonably yes. LOL! My problem now is that, everything inside or outside me tells me to go ahead. But you see, the more important she means to me, the more i get disappointed due to setbacks. Everything seems so wild now and it may seem like a rash decision. Then again, inside me tells me otherwise. I rarely have this feeling but when i have it, i'm not wrong about it. In fact i can't believe i'm doing this at all.

I honestly wonder how our relationship will shape over the weeks or even days ahead. It won't be too long before i can no longer deny how i feel anymore. By then, i would have blown it or gotten the perfect opportunity. I've considered all paths already and that to me, you are worth the pain to go through. Crazy as it sounds, i am willing to take the risk even if it means being unlucky in love for the third year. Forget about my past, i am now who i respect myself to be. No longer like secondary 2, i've changed. I really do hope for the best.

2010-01-17T23:03:00.003+08:00

I do feel better these few days from that weird feeling in my neck, head, shoulders and stomach. A lot better but still not as good as before. Apart from that, i think i should be feeling okay emotionally. I mean whats there to do for the next 2 months? If circumstances force me to, i may work for maximum one month and start to buy some new clothes.

For some reason, i can't get this feeling out of my head. Smooth and silent. It just gets me when i have such thoughts. Caught in a dilemma too. Been there all this while, but why couldn't i see? Only until now then i know. Giving it my all which may not reap its reward or just let it bypass me?

2010-01-16T01:21:00.002+08:00

Today i watched a movie with moh called " Blind Side" which was meaningful. I liked it and also that i'd rather watch something nicer than alvin & the chipmunks 2 ( though i watched it before already).

The movie is about this african-american dude name Michael Oher who was taken in by a well to do white family to fulfill his potential. The Touhys were the white family who took care of him and even treated him as their own. The environment he lived in was totally different and he learned to adapt things gradually. The process of how he managed to prove himself and the warmth of the family made me feel naturally happy for him. It's based on a true story where this Michael Oher is an NFL player in the USA. He had an initial GPA of 0.7 and made it to the dean's list.

A great story about hardwork and also family-ness which moved me. His naturally protectiveness was also used for a good purpose which eventually led to his success. Sometimes we do need to see that kind acts and certain charities can do wonders in other people's lives. And despite all the flaws in the world, there is still this bit of kindness which just shines and stands out. I would say this is a fantastic movie!

2010-01-11T18:38:00.002+08:00

O LEVEL RESULTS WAS TOTALLY SCARY MAN!

I can't believe it when i saw my name on the screen with 5 distinctions. O-M-G! I was just simply amazed and stunned. I started celebrating like crap!!! In the end my english got a B3... Well i kinda deserved that for a fast working on my summary. I should be even thankful for it. In the end i got L1 R5= 12 L1R4= 10

After minus= 10 = 8

GOOD NEWS MAN! Thank god for this..

I hope everyone can be happy with their results etc... Well now's just a stepping stone to greater things next time.. I'll end for now

2010-01-10T00:01:00.002+08:00

290th post...

Nightmares of O levels are starting to appear on everyone's mind... For me, i'm just being afraid.

Oh God help me! This is scaring the crap out of me and many others.

My heart is fluttering with fear and trembling uncontrollably. <--- LOL, i got that from the good vocabs from sec 4 notes. Brings back memories eh?

2010-01-09T01:32:00.002+08:00

O level results are officially in 60 hours time.. in other words is in 2 1/2 days time.

Seriously gotta start living like we're dying. It's making me getting all nervous.. I do wanna get good results and that i studied my guts out for it. For the first time i pushed myself to be disciplined enough to sit down and study. For 2 complete months, it was torturous but i endured. After that? I enjoyed like crap and even indulged by going to Australia. Right now, is the period which many dread. At this period, i'm kinda scared to dream. Almost to that extent. It's like i can think of myself celebrating. I hope i don't visualize myself in a pathetic state. I'm kinda sick of playing second fiddle to everyone. When i finally start studying, i'm afraid it may get depressing if i don't hit my targets.

I know that there are many ways out, but exactly how many paths do singapore's education system actually allow us to take? That's kinda like the main factor which puts people under heavy stress. I just hope history doesn't repeat itself like the O level chinese results. It was bloody annoying and just plain hell when you see others gloating and cheering while i'm there closing my eyes in disbelief. Just how many times must i face that? So this was why i was aiming for redemption throughout 2009. In fact, redemption doesn't just end in 2009. It continues on and on and on as long as we keep mistakes in all aspects. Revival is for my own theme picking myself up from whatever trials and tribulations and feeling alive once again. All these are main goals for now. Let's just hope i can successfully hit them. God bless me!

Back to the topic on working.. ( It will be shorter this time! )

My opinion on working at this period is that it is a waste of time. 1 month / 3months is all we got. Working deprives us the personal time to even maintain relationships as it was before. On the surface it seems like nothing has changed, but when the feeling just changes. Anyway, working is not wrong nor right. In fact all these are personal choices. My choice is that i feel that with my youth, i'd rather have the fun before it all disappears. Every year that we age, things come and go easily. Friends and even things that we value can just depreciate and vice versa. We only have one life and instead of working for money etc., enjoy the last years of our youth.

Basically that's it.. And of course we can look at things from different perspective. My point is that i don't see why i should work. I don't have enough money and that i'm bored. All these factors already are sufficient ones to pursue a job. The reasons are already explained on both posts. For me, its one month. It's gonna go by very quickly. Before i know it, i'll be taking my A level. Still, i'll hope to keep in touch with the people who are in poly also. Similarly for other JCs too. This won't be an empty promise. I'll do my best. So perhaps this ain't the last of my organised trips?

Chalet 2010

2010-01-07T01:48:00.002+08:00

Day 1 of Chalet 2010

I headed to cck interchange with my oversized monopoly board and chess. That includes a bag which is full of clothes and laptop. Most people were late except a couple of the usually early ones. The weirdest thing was that i saw yongjie bringing a fishing rod! LOL! Then we head for lunch which was pretty usual. After that, we had the longest and the most confusing journey of our lifetimes in singapore. We were told to take some funny numbered bus and we landed up in a loop. Truly right round man. The whole loop took around 1hr ++? Lester, Loy, King seng, huat, yongjie ,jason and i were finally sick of it and took a taxi to the chalet. When we reached there, i received the biggest shock of the day. Huat's mom was NOT AN NTUC MEMBER! We had to pay extra $240. Suddenly i was really stunned. It's either one duplex chalet or pay $240! Woah! Everyone was very fed up but because it was chalet, we controlled. Due to some witty brains of ours and some kind samaritan, we managed to get both chalets. A great escape!

When we arrived, we threw the stuff all over the place and started to play Civillisation: The Board Game. We totally forgot about what happened as we continued playing the game for like 4 hours until it reached a complete stalemate and boredom. Soon, Sinyee, KPK, boh, leslie, jk, di hao, wilson and syafiq reached the chalet. Things got pretty chaotic as everyone was scrambling to use my laptop for various reasons. Gosh! Things were to get interesting at night.

We had dinner at this weird western restaurant which was run by a china/taiwan boss. The cutlery was certainly funny. Butter knife for beef ? What a joke! LOL! I shall fast forward to the time when lester, loy, king seng, yongjie, yansan, hui en and i went for a night walk. Yongjie was going to fish at around 12mm with just one prawn as a bait. A couple of failed attempts saw us laughing at him very hard. When we reached back, we played two-line vocabulary which was played with the minority. After awhile, most of us collapsed and slept. King seng kept gaying around in between jk and i until i was fed up. I walked up and slept next to jehiel boh's bed. At 6.30am to 11am. Woo

Day 2 Chalet at its peak

Woke up and saw everyone so high- which was good. We went for lunch which was New york new York. 13++ which kinda burned a hole in my pocket! After that, we went for cycling around Pasir Ris Park. The bikes kinda sucked but i felt the lack of presence of people made the cycling quite fun. We had some stops over at this bar which had a stable nearby. As we were drinking our lemonade, we saw horses with their penis erected. That was horribly sick to the core, and i shan't describe further. We head back and the BBQ started. Yongjie was acting crazy as usual but managed to get the BBQ going. I was so glad that at least finally more than half the class appeared for the chalet and BBQ. The nicest part of the chalet was Day 2 night. We played games like murderer etc. A lot of funny and stupid moments happened. Something that everyone had to agree on was that peisi was the funniest of them all. She tried to wink and it was looking rather retarded. The worst part was that both of us were the murderers. We sat across each other and the easiest was to wink at the person across. We winked at each other and i guess everyone saw it. I laughed until i hit the "mattress" until my card was flipped and revealed. Game over immediately. LOL! King seng was acting gay throughout the whole process too.

2nd activity was in the bedroom. ( Please think straight) Supposingly Lester JK and I were trying song writing and it turned out to be a karaoke session. After that, for no apparent reason, i did a music video for i can't remember what. I felt like i was freaking high on drugs or what. All i did was to take cup noodles and i started to continue making music videos with myself performing. LOL! The most memorable was i guess the Poker Face one. Everyone just went K.O and i was like some livewire then. It carried on for another 2hours before i went for a night walk again with King seng and lester. The nightwalk lasted till 6am then we started to LITERALLY SLEEP WALK BACK. Our eyes were barely opened and we walked back to the chalet. Immediately we reached back, we rushed up to sleep on the bed. On the bed lay JK, Leslie, steph and peisi. Steph left the bed for a walk and immediately i hop on the bed for a desperate sleep. When i was almost asleep, peisi knee-ed me in the face and i decide to sleep in the reverse direction. King seng came up and started to leave his legs lying all over the place. I was so fed up that i went down to sleep where lester was. Lester was taking half of the two mattress placed together. Without hesitation, i collapsed on the mattress and slept.

Day 3 End of Chalet

I woke up at 8.30am and i slept only 2hrs. A living zombie man. Forget about what happened during the sleep and we had breakfast. McDonalds LOL! On the train, KPK di hao and i started to had violent reactions in our stomach. The most painful part was in the Jurong east to Batok. The toilet was really much needed. That was about the end of the chalet..

Here was what i noticed about people in the chalet

King Seng- Gay when awake, Gay-er when asleep

Yongjie- Makes a good hamburger with so many layers LOL

Lester- Another dick who can be high even without energy. And a freaking healthy eater

Jk- Super Emotional during sleep and also has an unfortunate toe which kept bleeding.

Sinyee- A cheerful zombie who can survive for 4hrs of sleep in total for two solid days.

Peisi- Sleeping kungfu master. ( The name says it all)

Kenneth- When he is awake, no one can sleep. Keeps wasting our time!

Quite a sad thing that when we as a class can enjoy stuff together, we have to leave. Quite a tough thing to accept. I guess we can only try to keep in touch to the best of our abilities without the use of words like " I'll try my best" and "see first". And that O level results are like on the 11th jan. What beholds the future? Just let time unravel what is currently unseen to us.

2010-01-06T21:51:00.002+08:00

Since the tagboard is full... i shan't make it so full then... I shall return a reply via a blog post.

My point is that.. on average, i don't spend most of my time on the computer. And honestly, working is more of a waste of time given that your time is limited. 1 month for JC? That's way to little to even rest. 3 months for poly? If working is really what you like, go ahead. But trust me, most people are just enslaving themselves to their job just to earn money. How fun can that be? If you really want to work, it should be for a worthy cause like to work to pay off education fees etc.. Right now, we are working to have fun. Sense the Irony? Working already takes up so much time, so wheres the fun? Working is just like another routine of school, but its just that working is so much more dreadful.

To kenneth's point of that, i spend my time more useful than that. I go on average 3 times a week excluding times where i exercise. To me, what is useful is also to upgrade yourself AND to maintain your social relationships. How much experience can you gain working in an F&B industry when i'm sure many won't be working there in the future? Plus, how much experience can you acquire within that 1 month or so? It basically comes down to naught.

Right now, these months are just our only break. Working drains so much energy only for money. I agree Slacking is useless, but at times after a one year push for O levels, why isn't it just possible to rest for maximum 3 months? And it's not as if we are just rotting at home playing games only. And i understand that slacking gets boring so we find work. Grass is always greener on the other side. When we work, we realise slacking is better and vice versa. Don't put yourselves into so much misery when you can just relax and recover as you head for another 2 or 3 year push. What exactly is our goal in life? Escalate the education levels and make sure we can secure a good job and if possible a one we enjoy. Within this arduous journey, we don't have time to even rest. What is 1.3k a month to us? It's just $1300 with no degree. Isn't most going to be going to be spent? $1300 for a month of work of perhaps 10 hours a day for 20 days/30 days the whole month. $1300 is actually an overly-optimistic pay already. Most of us are not even earning 1k. Hence, just take the time to rest while we can. Money is important BUT it isn't crucial for us now. Don't lose what we have at our age which is our youth and memories.

Kenneth, let's take it easy. I know you will offend others, but you won't offend me. I understand your point of view but i just don't agree. I'm just stating my view here, no hard feelings man! Later i shall be posting about the class chalet! See ya later!

2009-12-30T01:00:00.003+08:00

I always look at things from a different perspective. But there are just some things i can't understand and don't agree to it! Okay... today we were talking about the topic on work. Amos jordan and i were debating about teenagers having a job. We came to a consensus that working for us now is a total waste of time.

Let's just look at it this way... We have 2-3 months before school starts and we'll get separated. For guys, its kinda even illogical to work now when this is our last break in perhaps the next 5 years? After JC or poly, its army. So what exactly are we working for? Money? Bored? Experience?

Money should be something we were aware at the start of the year. I'm not working but i'm coping well to go out and enjoy. Many others are as well.. Even so, how much can you earn? Not even 1k unless you're very enthu about work. Plus, singapore, theres a lot of things u can do for free?

Bored? Meet up with friends! Do activities? For guys, we have army in 2-3 years time? Take the time to keep fit. There's so much to do! You don't always need money to do stuff you know!

Experience? That's the worst. If you are working in the F&B for example, will u be one next time? How much experience can you gain anyway?

Okay i don't hate work or anything.. but shouldn't we focus on what's important first rather than work work work? I mean you wanna work? After University or your poly, you will have all the time in the world to work.

I know most of our views just don't click, as IMO, i feel that for now, we should just cherish the friendship that we can ever have for now. The genuine ones. In JC or Poly, if you really study hard, there ain't much time to actually have a great friendship. So on and on.. I maybe wrong though, but i feel theres a better thing to do rather than work.

Some share my sentiments, most are wondering what crack i am smoking.. Basically, i would say cherish our youth when we can. Money is something we can keep earning. But friendship cannot be in anyway similar to money. At the same, recover man. What for do we work so hard during O levels for? It's rest! Instead of resting, you want to tire yourself. I know its free will but i just find it a little odd!

Enjoy studying life as much as we can before we become adults. We're gonna be 17 next year. 3 more years its 20. What do we want for life? I have my answers, i hope everyone has their own. I'm just bored and kinda dizzy now but i'm just blogging.

Top 6 prettiest girls of 2009

2009-12-27T23:28:00.014+08:00

The wait is over... Chasper's list of the top 6 prettiest girls of 2009 is finally here! There will be a rating /10 with a one decimal place. E.g 7.1 Here goes... starting with ...

6) Hayden Panettiere

Age: 20 years old

Most famous for: Heroes TV drama, I love you Beth Cooper and Singing

Hair colour: Blonde (Duh)

Chas's one word description : BEAUTIFUL

Chas-o-meter: 7.5/10

Partners if any: Jesse Mccartney (Boyfriend)

Comments: Damn! Jesse Mccartney's one lucky bugger.

5) Pixie Lott ( Victoria Louise Lott)

Age: 18 years old O.O

Most famous for: Singing songs etc. Mama do and

Boys and Girls

Hair Colour: Blonde!

Chas's one word description: H.O.T

Chas-o-meter: 7.7/10

Partners if any: Not that i know of

Comments: What would my mama do if i had a girlfriend like that? Uh oh uh oh! LOL

4) Peyton List

Age: 23 years old

Most famous for: Flashforward series (acted as the babysitter)

Hair colour: I think blonde then brunette or vice versa

Chas's one word description: STUNNING

Chas-o-meter: 8.0/10

Partners if any: Not that i know of

Comments: The picture says it all.. I can't take my eyes off it!

3) Sienna Miller

Age: 27 years old

Most famous for: G.I Joe Rise of the Cobras ( Baroness)

Hair colour: By right, she is blonde.. But hotter as a brunette

Chas's one word description: MESMERISING

Chas-o-meter: 8.2/10

Partner if any: Once with Jude law

Comments: I fell in love with her acting as soon as i watched G.I Joe on the plane. Hot as a flame grilled steak. Wow

2) Katie Cassidy

Age: 23 years old

Most famous for: Melrose place, Supernatural season 3 as ruby and Black Christmas

Hair colour: Blonde!

Chas's one word description: Out-of-this-world (Considered one word)

Chas-o-meter: 8.3/10

Partner if any: Was with jesse mccartney but now with lester moh. LOL! just kidding!

Shes with spiderman. Toby mcguire

Comments: Jesse mccartney was a fool to dump

her. Her acting as ruby was great and that it will be good to see more from her

1) Taylor Swift!

Age: 20

Most famous for: Catching my eye.

Love story, You belong with me, breathe and many more songs

Hair colour: Blonde!

Chas's one word description: UNDISPUTED!

Chas-o-meter: 8.5/10 ( Not being biased)

Partner if any: Me. LOL!

Seriously, its that taylor lautner :O

Comments: It'll take me a whole blog post to say this but i'll cut it short. She's classic, shes great and kanye west you stink.

Most interesting trend: They are all blondes. Hehe!

Okay that's the end of the top 6 girls of 2009! Hope u enjoyed!

2009-12-26T00:03:00.002+08:00

Dedicated solely to di hao and jia lun and wilson and those who feel pissed off with the chalet administrative matters...

We'll send the idiots a message. That they can't do anything they like and that this. This is our chalet! All they care is themselves and nothing more. Since they love working and not replying, continue working. We don't give a damn. You see... by not replying our messages, you are inconveniencing us. And hello, don't give excuses like i don't know. CAUSE ITS BLATANT that you are making things hard.

On the contrary, we shouldn't stop the chalet plans. Why should we let down those who have been faithfully attending? I would say.. we cancel the class chalet. But we have our own chalet. For those who wants to go. More like a reunion rather than a class. For those who are obsessed with working and not reply sms, i'd say you should try an office party. That's more suitable for buggers like you all.

In other words, let's make this year's one a success for the last time okay? Ignore the idiots. Who's with me? Or rather... Let's do this!

2009-12-25T01:12:00.002+08:00

Okay Merry Christmas to all! First and foremost, i would like to thank all my friends for being with me. I shan't list them as there are a lot. For the closer friends, a even bigger thank you and let's meet up again some time! Like what some friends said, flaws spoil the friendship. Agreed, but i guess we learn and accept the minor ones as we go on. But exactly how many of true friends survive in your heart after all these years? I'm thankful i have at least 3 good friends i can count on? In fact the holidays are one of the best times to reveal how people feel about you. I've been there and done that. Fair weather friends? I know who they are and i don't care about them. After i've been let down by so many people, i start to realise that all the more i should not let down those who mean something to me. It gets frustrating to know how selfish people are even to their own friends. I know we're all human but can't we at least spare that self-centeredness for certain things? It'll take a generation to change this mentality, that's if people are willing to change. Oh wells.. the bets i could do is to keep the friendships going on and treasure them.

Since amos is back, we'll be organising a trip to sentosa on the 27th and eating on the 28th. Everyone is invited and contact me for more info.

Warning: Questions like "Who is going?" may not be entertained. Only answers like "yes" or "no" will be accepted.

Also! Later on in the morning, i'll release my 2009 Top 5 prettiest girls in my opinion. To be exact, nones from CCKSS nor any singaporean schools. They are celebrities. Its not that predictable okay... But keep a look out for it. Hottest edition for this year! If i'm not wrong, SOMEONE's gonna publish it himself also. Hehe...

2009-12-18T01:10:00.002+08:00

How ironic.. I thought maybe thats the end to secondary school. How interesting that a friend was found. For 4 years, i've always have a certain impression. But today, it all changed. For the better of course. Then again, it is great to actually realise that the person was actually a friend afterall. A good friend. This is the first time i actually feel happy to be proved wrong.

I guess everyone has their flaws and maybe he just revealed another flaw of mine? Whatever it is, i'm glad that at least i got further in the conversation than before. It's like finally. It'll be interesting to see how birds of the same feather flock together.

Lost a good friend in january, gained another in december. It's kinda sad as it seems i lost both. Why? It cause sec 4 life is ending and i guess time is limited with my good friends and with the new addition. From another perspective, it's really more than what i can ask for. He definitely cannot replace but he will be an addition.

Anyway.. another good news is that i got the good progress award. LOL! First time in my life man. Nothing big but actually i got something for studies. Especially when i started studying seriously. Great encouragement though! Thank God for that!

2009-12-16T23:25:00.002+08:00

280th post! Okay like great! But this will be a boring one though. Looks like i'm bored to tears as usual. Jobless with a lot of freedom! Nothing much has been happening, just have been going gym and playing computer games. Looks like theres something nice to comment on.

Topic: Chua chu kang secondary's new principal is considering/ already planned to have handphone checks and bans handphones

My response: I understand her rationale, but that ain't feasible. I mean no matter what happens it will be difficult to control, who wouldn't want to bring out their handphone to school? I can think of countless reasons to bring a handphone. So whatever it is.. Good luck for ccksians. And glad that i don't have to fret over this.

Private life section: Hmmm, everything we had is no longer there. Truly. But looks like the past just replays as an entertainment. In this ever-changing world, i guess the only thing that never changes is what we hold with us. Conflicts, losses and whatsoever in the past. Even if i can bury the hatchet and asking to start afresh, it takes two hands to clap. I know we can revert back to the past since the past already impacted us, but i guess we can only move on and make the best out of it. I'm willing. Evade all circumstances. Circumstances are only created due to our hesitations and emotions. If we really want something, circumstances would not even be a problem. I guess i've said enough.

Getting the hype for the astronomy camp. Hopefully it will be even better than last year. In fact now, everyone of us are living for the sake of our O level results. That is what makes me so bored in the meantime. After the Os results and school choice, i would like to revive my life.

2009-12-11T17:41:00.003+08:00

Okay I'm BACK FROM AUSTRALIA!

Here are some fun facts i discovered:

1) The price of 2 cans of coke = A bottle of beer (WTH?)

2) Australian girls are generally pretty

3) Australian guys are either hunks or punks

4) Australian Standard of living is damn high.

5) Kangaroos are nice to feed

6) Sheep feel like sofa

7) Emus are idiotic as they peck a kangaroo as i was feeding it

8) In Australia, you will not have constipation as they have LOTS of salad

9) Their rides are seriously scary. Btw, those i took were considered mild rides.

10) The Sun there rises at 4am

11) Punks get intoxicated by 8pm.

12) Shops closes at 5pm. Gosh!

Thats it for now... i'm kinda lazy to type out everything BUT! Guys, i bought souvenirs for you all.. I'm not sure if i can cover everyone, but will try though..

2009-11-25T01:41:00.002+08:00

Prom night's over. Let's see.. everyone's back to their emo-self. Whether drowning themselves in work or rotting at home, everyone's feeling miserable inside. Freedom is given. When we are given freedom, we take it for granted and don't want too much freedom. An epitome of grass is always greener on the other side. That's why we humans can't ever decide what's best for ourselves. If we ever do, we'll land up not appreciating things. Without struggles, how sweet can victory taste? Stating the obvious? Very much true, but we always overlook that.

Back on the lighter side, i can't work. December i got quite a bit of stuff to do. Taking care of business of the china boy and also the overseas trips and camps, quite a pain. At least it keeps me active and prevents my brain from getting sapped and lazy.

Lessons learnt in this year:

---> Resentment is gone. But the incident of dedrick thingy still remains as a scar.

----> Studying hard does pay off. But ultimately, the results will determine it.

----> Never believe anyone except your friends. E.g Certain people who claimed to want to play everyday after O levels and lands up working.

----> Anything can screw up, but you yourself must stay strong.

----> We need divine intervention. Seriously.

----> Good intentions gets rejected without much consideration

----> Just when you thought everything was right, it ends up the opposite is right.

----> There are just some lessons that people don't learn even when u stress it to them.

----> Nothing lasts forever. Memories do.

The above applies to everything i have commented on this year. It's funny even when i read it.

It looks like a graduated student can only look back and laugh at his own mistakes and marvel at his own achievements. I have no regrets in this school. It's not because our school is perfect ( In fact its far from it) but it's because of what i am today.

2009-11-21T01:22:00.003+08:00

As i was listening to Alexandra Burke's song about bad boys, it got me thinking. Love defies logic in this aspect. Sounds absolutely dumb and retarded but its a cruel fact.

Quoted from the song," Even though i know they are not good for me, it's the risk i take for chemistry."

Woah... so sad man. As i think properly, do girls really like guys who have no principles in this case? I would classify that as principles in this case. I understand flings are flings but.. if it is so, why do girls end up crying and cursing the guy when they know they are like that? I admit i hate to see such a sight.

Personally, when i look at myself in the mirror. I know my flaws but i decided to abandon all those bad boy image 2 years ago. Whatever the "advantages" of being a bad boy, i wouldn't want to be one. I'd rather be myself. It's kinda pathetic to be reduced to abandoning your principles, so i'd stay myself. It's true that love comes and go, but i guess the right one will appreciate my mentality. I hope. haha.

Speaking of which, suddenly i was wondering. How on earth am i single for 2 years? (Don't look so shocked) Well, i admit that i've been through a lot of problems with love and sorts. From getting a taste of my medicine to many other excuses to leave me single, i can't help but feel like i'm getting punished. In a way, it's fair i guess. Atone for past mistakes for the future seems pretty reasonable. I received so many setbacks from all those but well, i can't do anything. Start afresh?

Honestly, is it that easy for people to just accept your past? I know it sounds self-righteous or whatsoever but i can accept most of peoples' past. I also realised all my failed chances were all with reference to my past. Kinda sad though but that is something i cannot deny. I can't argue. I can't fight. But seriously, even if i raise the question of starting afresh, will it even be possible? Not being pessimistic though but how many can?

I can only fake a smile and carry on. The only reason why my world has not collapsed is because i myself have not given up on myself. With the addition of some support from others, it encourages. Obviously my first relationship was the best but well, good things always end fast. Unfortunately, everything crumbled down just because a pure misunderstanding. It carries on. "One day history will judge us"- It is, isn't it?

I guess at the end of the day, all these struggles make us cherish things better. I always wonder when this streak would end, but now i thought of it. Quality is indeed better than quantity. Not always two is better than one also. Such a simple thing like this, requires such a heavy lesson to understand it. Funny isn't it?

Well this world is full of paradoxes. You lose in order to understand the importance. In other words, it's somewhat like a case of losing to win. However, not always would it be like a cinderella story.

A nice story to end this... Just as i was about to end this post, i control + A to select a sentence but accidentally deleted this whole past. For a moment i was frustrated, started to hope that i could redo such. Until i used control + z, i got it back. It got me thinking as usual. It's a case of understanding the meaning till it's lost. This would just be some normal post as usual, but now.. it's like a lesson for everyone including me. There isn't a undo button in life. We lost it and it's gone. Occasionally, there is correcting button in our lives. But the scar remains.

If i didn't tell you all about this, wouldn't this just be another ordinary post? Now i understand the significance. Not just about this post, but clearer about things in general. I hope this can enlighten you all in some way or another. Sounds lame but it doesn't matter.

2009-11-17T00:06:00.002+08:00

As i was just surfing around facebook, i stumbled upon many sec 2 camp pictures. It really reminded me of Level camps. I hate and certainly dread level camps. Boring, Childish, Waste of time and totally unproductive. Team spirit is supposed to be built up through these stuff, but sad to say, it led me to be even more resentful. I clearly did not enjoy my level camps other than the night events in our own bunks. Every year its always high elements ( yawns), water activities being too short and campfire cheers are simply too cliche.

The only camp i seriously enjoy was ANE camp. Cause at least that has some level of fun compared to level camps where things are so rigid. In the other words, its just cheap thrill. Shouting your lungs out and then strepsils in your mouth, doesn't fancy me at all. And the performances also.. Nothing but ordinary. Overly cliche and lets me down. At least skit is interesting compared to dance where we get to do simple moves and expect to make us happy. Horrible ideas are always welcomed in such camps, good ideas are generally not popular. Somehow or another, 70% of the people in level camps enjoy themselves. Out of these, 70% of them are just enjoying themselves to fit in.

Gosh! Call me a wet blanket or spoil sport, but level camps are just overly disappointing. Thankfully its paid with edusave, if not i will be lamenting over the waste of cash. Thankfully i'm out of all these crap, and let's hope fun lies ahead.

Seems like becoming a talk show now eh? I guess i will leave a comment button for anyone to give their opinion on this.

Campfire's burning down. Obviously, thats why its called fire.

2009-11-13T23:54:00.002+08:00

O levels are over. Just when my mood was great. I realised somethings just don't change.

Class outings. FUCK. To think i fucking gave a damn about 4/7 to even organise an outing. Don't turn up, sure. The effort used to put in for all these was seriously tiring. I had to bug people to get things done and draft out a plan for everyone. So what do i get for sentosa? My friends going only? See first see first. See what? All everyone does is to disappoint.

Organising is never easy. Saying NO to people's effort is so damn easy. But organising is the total opposite. You guys are fucking hard to please. Always at your beck and call. Great. So what? I owe you a living here? Do you need me to feed your family?

For goodness sake, ask yourselves. You like to make it hard, why not you organise and i be difficult. Huh? Like it? You know what? You want a chalet? You want good location? You want cheap? Yeah? Sounds good?

Go fly a bloody kite. Thats a fucking utopia. How about having a free chalet with maids serving you? Yeah? Free BBQ? Dream on.

You want anything now, go get it yourself. Organise it yourself. Play hard to get? Go ahead.
It's not my problem. I only care about my friends. What is 4/7? 4/7 is only made up of my friends. You treat the outings like a backup? We don't talk about feelings here. Cause the damage was done a donkey years ago. Disappointment after disappointment. Just do things your way yeah?

Get your free chalet at www.go-fly-a-kite.com

This applies to certain people. Go decipher it yourself. I don't need your sympathy.

2009-11-05T22:30:00.004+08:00

Strange as it seems that everyone is relaxing even before the Os are over. Well two paper 1s left and a full chinese paper left. I'm also feeling pretty relaxed now. Gosh!

Good news for everyone!

AMOS IS COMING BACK TO SINGAPORE FOR TWO WEEKS!

Bad news for everyone!

AMOS IS COMING BACK TO SINGAPORE IN LATE DECEMEBER!

Grab your tickets to meet the singaporean born-based in shanghai boy. Any questions please ask me!

2009-10-12T21:08:00.002+08:00

O LEVELS START IN TWO WEEKS TIME!

OMG WTH!

Okay but well, i've been filled with both excitement and anxiety. Oh dear, and thoughts of results will always cripple me with fear. Whatever it is, we should keep our cool and work towards what we have been aiming for. One chance = Big one

I'm really looking forward to get into a JC that i want to go! And also, the freedom that i long for 1 year. 2 months of non-stop playing is worth the hardwork. Chalet, mahjong, food, games and many more just makes me determined.

Won't be posting till then.... After 13 Nov, this blog will be once again filled with life. No worries!

2009-09-02T18:32:00.002+08:00

Hey! Long time no post already... Hmmm, life has been normal these few days. Practising everyday for O levels for almost every subject and giving it my best shot. Let's just pray everything will turn out very well!

Nowadays, classes have also been getting funny especially when people start doing retarded things. Talking about retarded, i'm sure everyone who played soccer including the girls had a lot of entertainment. Chii ming was damn funny with the ball especially when he monkeyed with the ball and looked like he was tap-dancing. LOL!

Does ANYONE KNOW WHERE TO REPAIR PSP? I am in desperate need for it.

MY analogue is spoilt and that when i'm playing car racing games, it seems to be moving left and right on its own. Argh! Like that how to win sia?

2009-08-11T18:44:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to myself! Today was generally a good day and let me do my report.

1st person to wish me- Miss Daphne Kua - who demanded to be first in line and was... With that lengthy message of 400kb, you are much appreciated!

2nd - Joselin - Thank you superstar

3rd- Koh puay kiat- eventually led to my mango

4th- Xue Li- Thanks as well, thankfully u remember

5th- Lim wenyi- You'd better remember

6th- Yansan- I am surprised

7th- Valerie- You wished me and went offline, woah

8th- Grace- Thanks for the abrupt message of toilets

9th- Di hao- You watch out with your mangoes

10th- Ah huat- Thanks the 3 of you

11th- Amos- Greetings from Shanghai, phone bill explodes in Singapore!

12th Pei si and sinyee- Same timing.. Sorry

13th- Jordan hum- You almost forgot.. But still u remembered phew

14th- Qin yuan- Thanks! I almost didn't hear you. haha

15th- infinite numbers- The rest thanks!

Weirdest wishes

1st- Stephanie, on the 8th August morning, an sms woke me up with a birthday wish. Shocked was the feeling. Nonetheless thanks

2nd- Jehiel boh, on all the days, deserve a serious beating for wishing everyday. HAHA

Memorable moments

A math paper- I really thought i was going to fail badly for paper 2, but thankfully not! 48/100. Bad but will work on it. Thank god

Mangoes? On a hot weather, it doesn't go well. Slight pains here and there but i survived. Phew!

Once again thanks Di hao, Xueli, sinyee and peisi for your presents. I love FBT! u know what i mean.

Birthday BOY is 16 and can watch NC16 MOVIES

2009-08-10T22:57:00.002+08:00

1 more hour.. Happy birthday to myself then.. Will have more reports tomorrow.. I will make it a grand blogpost. AND! jehiel Boh needs a serious beating. Haha.. you are so dead tomorrow man!

2009-08-09T14:44:00.000+08:00

For crying out loud, my birthday ain't on 8 august or whatever. Check properly before you wish. It's on 11 August. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2009-07-31T21:56:00.002+08:00

Fever- 38.6
Sore throat - Pain
Running nose- As fast as usain bolt
Cough- Pain
Diarrhoea- Contracted my stomach such that i almost fainted Seriously
Nausea- Really felt like vomiting

I should be fine with medicine. It drained me of all my energy but i'm still alive. Don't worry guys. In fact, thanks for all your concern class and friends! I know the class feels empty without me, zhanfei, lester, jk and ruiping. Mostly me!

Okay guys... Pray for us whatever your religion ( LOL) or all the best for us. Thank you guys..

I really love every single one of u!

2009-07-27T21:53:00.002+08:00

Prelims get me feeling jaded and disillusioned. It is quite a blow not just to my ego and confidence. But i really do hope that i will get much better results for O levels.

Here is the worst part-

I don't know why am i feeling this way even though relationships which are broken have no relations to me. I really think it's such a pity and shame to be victim of the victim. Speaking in a third person's point of view, a girl get hurts by her boyfriend. You know it will happen and you warn her but it is just not enough. She falls in and you get torn apart. The person who breaks the heart of the other actually leads to a chain of hurt and sorrow. And it's a very heart-wrenching feeling whenever someone gets hurt but you are powerless to do anything. It really amazes me how people think. As i said before, the meaning of love is just lost in the midst of these mindless actions.

Responsibility is something really required for a relationship. I really applaud how some people can hurt others without feeling the guilt? Once is alright, but how many times must this go on? How many hearts must be sacrificed just to bring across the point of pure innocence? But the blame doesn't just go to one party also. For the other party, how can you not know? Checking up on a person's background is very important but always be aware not to condemn the person. Some people who cheat on their girlfriend/boyfriend, i think it is really unethical. Why do you need so many? Look yourself in the mirror and do u dare to say that what you have done is absolutely faultless?

People just place their trust in the wrong people. When you misplace your trust in someone, you get the tendency to be afraid and be very wary of people. Why can't people just rationalise with their brains? Your heart gives you the direction, your brain gives you the command. Why let a formidable force split and travel alone? Everything can be prevented.

I can't seem to face the truth whenever your loved one gets hurt annd you sit there patiently waiting for him/her but they never come to you. They would rather get hurt and wallow in self-pity while the unfaithful party goes on enjoying himself.

For a man, we must always follow our set of principles and morals. Without these, what are we? Just some beast with a sadistic mindset. Thus, how can a woman even love such a beast?
Why ruin your happiness for something which you thought is real bliss but in the end it's hell? Why cry and hurt the one near you thinking you are in hell when bliss and comfort is just so near you?

What irony love brings to us. What can a mere human being like me do when people persist in getting hurt? It's sad.. No doubt

2009-07-25T12:21:00.002+08:00

Prelims week was really a killer. Tuesday to Friday seems short but yet so long. Going through that amount of stress was crazy. I somehow managed to get through it, of course by studying. I am disappointed of course with chemistry. I barely had time to study and went to the exam without studying at all. History will soon prove to be another failure. Enough of the exam talk, now this weekend is somewhat like giving me a breather so i can continue for the next two days. It is difficult to persevere but i can continue. Arduous prelims at its peak.

I suddenly got the harry potter craze, i would love to watch the order of the phoneix before watching half-blood prince. Lets hope monday and tuesday will be a good day such that i will be able to study and watch half-blood prince after that?

2009-07-20T19:36:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow, 21 July 2009, a day of infamy when the Chua Chu Kang Backroom staff deliberately and suddenly betrayed us for prelims. Always will we remember the attack against us. I assert that we will not only defend ourselves to the uttermost, but will make very certain that we will score well. With confidence in ourselves- with the unbounded determination of ourselves- We will gain the inevitable triumph.

LOLOLOL! Woah seriously, i'm kinda feeling shitty but i really want to focus on doing well for my prelims and O levels. Okay i guess thats about it.

2009-07-17T21:04:00.002+08:00

BBC Radio Northhampton rocks! Capital 95.8 Fm radio rocks too. I'm addicted to British radio.

Okay time for serious realistic business... Having mixed feelings. Happy, Pissed off, irritated and sad. Prelims and affairs that are circulating the school and my own shit makes me feel that way. Prelims is the major bullshit. Instead of complaining, i would suggest doing what i can.

Take care for all the people who got H1N1! Don't play play!

Never Say Never!

2009-07-10T20:18:00.002+08:00

Emotional ( EMO) Vs Optimistic ( OPT)

Emo = governed by emotion, showing or revealing very strong emotions

Opt= disposed to take a favorable view of events or conditions and to expect the most favorable outcome.

I would say i am evenly balanced out. I admit, i can be emo at times. But i don't know why! Okay now for real situations. Chem mid year exam was screwed up, read wrong questions, give incomplete answers and those which i was aware that i wasn't supposed to do. Yes excuses are dime a dozen. STILL? Instead of feeling emo, i felt a certain hopeful vibe. I was thinking how could did this be happening? I was well aware of the excuses i had, and of course i decided to work on them rather than throw it away. Make myself speechless. No more excuses for the next exam. Plus this race is only getting more interesting, it really shows a lot. But it is only arbitrary. It is never the end. Change your mindset and start working rather than whinning. As i said before, the greatest enemy is yourself. That is something i should conquer. Convert it into something successful.

Afterall, it's not how you started. It's how you catch up and make an amazing comeback. The climb is on. I lack the perseverance which many people have. Natural ability is risky but is already an advantage.

In reference to July 8th post, see people... Don't you hate it when people keep harping on what you've done? It's always very depressing to hear people whom you love and care actually BOTHERS about your past not your present. What more when i don't look at them that way. It affects me and my future because of that. And the fact is that, it's such a pity no one can understand what i mean. People care too much about what you've done and only remember what bad things you've done. Let's say, if i were to give everyone in this school a piece of paper and ask them to write what is the most memorable moments i had with them. Perhaps the paper will be at most 5 lines? Most of them would be can't remember or don't think so.

If i were to change the situation, what were the horrible things i've done? I guess 5 lines would be the minimum. I really wonder why people are just like that. Most of the times, i am really honest but people just like to doubt me and even lie. I see through their lies. So blatant at times. Sometimes it is just so dreadful and so emotional, such that i can't seem to look forward to take a chance.

Sometimes i feel like everyone is so messed up,hectic and busy. I feel like shouting but no one can hear me. That is what many people overlook in life. Minor details like this. Forget it, ranting just makes me feel better. But the real problem lies with mentality of people. It's hard to improve on it.

2009-07-08T17:38:00.002+08:00

Always the same. Never changes. The good always get misunderstood and always the bad gets what they want and get trusted. I find myself always wanting to have the right intentions to help or genuinely in love, no one believes. Why am i a liar to people when i'm honest with what i do? I am getting all bitter here. Being judgmental is what most people in our school have as a talent. It sucks when truth can be distorted to form lies when people are sceptical. Language brings too much miscommunication and people don't know when to trust and when not to. It really hurts me deeply to always be the dubious character with a lot of question marks all over my head. I am a human also, i want to be trusted. At the same time, i don't want to be so human like as humans are always judgmental. One's person actions led to a good/bad effect. Most of the time, your judgments are always the trigger to all these. Can this trust issue be resolved? Or will it stay and just blind the people of this world with ignorance and mistrust.

Back to lighter side, i can't really see a reason to smile nor be sad. In fact, i can't allow any slip-ups. O levels are like in 3months and 20 plus days? Every day brings me closer to what i have been dreading and yet wanting. As i look back, i realised i have only one more chinese major exam to complete the chinese O levels part. Confidence is the one of the requirements for a miracle to happen. Perseverance is to keep us going in search for the miracle. Being prepared actually secures and leaves you with a peace of mind. 3 key forces that i have to bear in mind!

Strictly not for the pessimists! I don't care if you agree or not.....

2009-07-07T21:32:00.002+08:00

Chinese oral is something which left me with mixed reactions. A part of me tells me i already exceeded my dominy expectations. Another part of me tells me that i didn't do well.. Okay that seems very confusing! I really hope i can do well.. Obviously! But i wish i can score very high and i don't want to re-take chinese. I wanna focus on my other subjects.

The biggest enemy is yourself.
In this case, it means me. I totally agree man. Boundaries are always set by myself and that i made myself screwed. I stammered and kinda got stuck at sometimes. That's what u get when u have a weakness and u don't work on it. But honestly, it's never simple never easy, changing yourself is something very difficult. If thats the case guys, DO YOU KNOW YOUR ENEMY?

YES! I DO!

2009-07-06T17:51:00.002+08:00

My preparation for chinese O level oral is ............ Karaoke for chinese songs! And some revision of hot topics.

I can't believe i am actually using chinese songs to prepare for o level oral. Well, firstly i think it is easier to remember and make myself comfortable with the language on the day of the exam. I really pray for a miracle. GOD HELP ME!

2009-07-03T21:50:00.002+08:00

I hate the feeling of being down.. Seriously. What a great time for my chest to hurt and get me distracted. A math exam was screwed up lah seriously. I think paper 1 was better. What a blow man. Damn it lah. I better make damn sure i pull myself up. O level chinese oral is round the corner. Now i really understand.. O level is just a journey and to complete it successfully is the hardest part. Every failure is a turning point in our lives, there's a junction where u make the turn. So which way do i go? Common sensically, its to continue the journey with perseverance. Holding on is something hard too. Do i have the heart to go on? I know i can. I know i will. But what lies ahead is really very unpredictable. All i can do is pray hard and work hard and smart.

Time waits for no man. Maximise to optimal performance. It's time

2009-07-02T19:09:00.002+08:00

I'm crazy.. I can't believe i went so crazy after those crazy mid year exams i just took. I wasn't stressed. In fact, the exams are just like tests. But A math and chemistry were scary. Especially A math. I didn't know how to do most questions on the first look. Finally i thought over and over again until i manage to do 6 questions out of 7. 1 of them i dont know how to do. And i forgot to study on Quadratic equations. Damn, though everyone feels its hard too, but i guess i really have to prepare better next time.

As for chemistry, it was okay lah.. Some unsure, but most know how to do. Everyone in the class has different answers. So? I hope i will do well for both. I want to get A2! Minimum, but whatever, my prelims gotta improve. I guess it's time to start chionging. I really hope my O level chinese oral can be done and will do well. Please.. it's kinda killing me!

I shall end off with a physically exhausted body and a mentally shocked mind with MORE to handle. In one month, everything will just pile up and it's up to me to clear it with style. :D

2009-06-29T19:09:00.002+08:00

I can't believe it! How screwed up my holidays was and school will be. Lack of preparation left me feeling insecure, but i gotta find a solution. Here is the scary schedule of death .....

Let me show u how hectic and a killer schedule i have...

Ratings: Black is nothing much, Yellow is MILD, Orange is fairly scary, Red is seriously WTF scary!

Everything is gonna be colourful, bear with me.

1st Week

Monday- Today is mainly preparation and crazy mugging
Tuesday- Decision of whether we will our mid year exam will be + SPA PRACTICE
Wednesday- A Math Mid year exam + Chemistry Mid year Exam + SPA PRACTICE
Thursday- Preparation for O Level Oral
Friday- Same

2nd Week

Monday- Youth day
Tuesday- GCE O LEVEL CHINESE ORAL EXAM WTF
Wednesday- Nothing much
Thursday & Friday- Mainly preparation for Prelims

3rd Week - Whole week SPA ASSESMENT + PRELIMS

4th WEEK- PRELIMS ALL THE WAY

As you can see.. After 4 week, i hope i will be still alive. Busy definitely, but i will be still be online. Okay! All the best. I'm most worried about chinese oral. K! Bye

2009-06-28T18:09:00.002+08:00

Back to the craze of.........
Love her songs again! LOL! AND last but not least...

Megan Fox! I had a hard time finding a decent picture.

Okay serious business, school is starting tomorrow! Damn, i still have homework left undone. I would have to cover as much as i can lor.. Plus Mid year exam A math. O level chinese oral. It's crazy, but i can cope. Time management is key. I should be able to do it.
Thats about it!

2009-06-26T23:42:00.007+08:00

Okay sentosa today was fun... long story though, but i will just show pics from where we were washing up. Heres the story......

We were done with playing for the day and we decided to walk!
Di hao loves bare back. Look at the guy in blue, quite handsome.. I wonder who, looks a bit like tom cruise. Walk on brothers!

Be patient.. We are getting closer to see his face.. He looks more and more like tom cruise.. And a bit like david archuleta.. Lets see.............

Omg! It is david archuleta! It is tom cruise!!! AHHHHH!!! IT'S YONGJIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cheers!

After being a paparazzi chasing tom cruise, i was tired and hungry.. Jia lun looked at me. Here is the dialogue.

Jialun: "Want some twisties ?"
Chas: Maybe not

So i decided to continue looking around and seeing how is everyone doing. It seems like no one was in a good mood at all.. I asked Jason siow a question....

Chas: Hey! Yo! Hows life?
Jason: Fuck you
Chas: What? Why must u really use the F**** word?

Feeling hurt and emotional, i decided to find other companions...

I decided to look for chii ming.

Chas: Hey chii ming! Hows Life?!!
Chii Ming: What lah not happy ah? * Banging the Lockers*

Chas: Wa lao.. u not happy must scold me ar?

Once again, dejected. I decided to seek for companionship. Yeo zhanfei.
Giving a cheeky smile.. I looked at him and he returned a cheeky face. I was worried, but i was lonely so i talked to him. As usual, i said ...

Chas: Hows life?

Suddenly Yeo King seng appeared and smile too Oh boy... what a weird situation i am in... <-- I thought.. I wanted to ask one more question and tried to start a conversation BUT! Once again, i was left to be alone! With this damn gesture Yeo king seng and yeo zhanfei told me " FUCK OFF! DIAO SIMI LAN?"

Frightened and in despair, i took a step back and ran off. I hid in one corner and took a look. They were bullying another guy! Jason! Although he scolded me the F word, i was determined i had to save him!

A heroic chasper went to save him. After much fighting, he was badly defeated.

Bad injury to the knee and the head. OuCH! Oh my... That is the end of the story!

Here are some random pictures with some comments !

Oh hail! King Seng!

The new tony JAA! LOLOLOLOLO LMAO ROFL

King seng sleeping

David Archuleta/ tom cruise with a cap! XD

Welcome to sentosa! Err.. why are you wearing jeans? LOL

Roll eyes!

Concentrated! O levels.. work hard, with this face u will go far! WOO HOO LOLOL

2009-06-24T22:35:00.004+08:00

The Fall and the Climb- I fall badly, no matter how deep, i pull myself together and climb.

Emotions of sadness and depression just flow in naturally. It happens at times but i always have the choice to not think of it as a sad thing of course. When it comes to this part, i always look back and think whether it was my fault or not. I would definitely say that life is not fair, and that is something which is beyond my control. The only thing i can do is bite my tongue and continue my life. Setbacks like these are demoralising but i will not back down. I will move on looking back on this day. I won't forget this as this remains etched to my memory. I meant everything i said. Perhaps its a shame or rather unlucky but i will not turn back. I guess somethings are just not how i want it to turn out. It's a decision which i have no say in, but i would choose to be a matured enough to take it as it is, relive the moments once in awhile and live in as an archive in my lifelong journey. I am strong. I've weathered all storms and overcome many trials and tribulations, it has shaped me as a fighter. I will not back down. I hope i won't make anyone feel uneasy.

Move on.. Depending on yourself is the safest alternative.

2009-06-24T20:24:00.003+08:00

Disgusting side of humans-- In my class especially

People never fail to disappoint me... Life is really getting so predictable to the extent i know who are not going and why are they not turning up for events. Ever the same. I told myself constantly not to give up hope on people and be more optimistic. I tried, but it's coming down to nothing more than denial. I don't understand why people just keep doing this so many times. It's not fucking easy to organise an event for idiots like you all. Come and try. When you face shit with people telling you "Oh! See first." or " Oh, cause certain people not going.". When things that are interesting then you guys will actually turn up. Seriously go FLY KITE!

Just because of your mindless and considerate actions, you start a chain. People don't go because you are not going. You know, i really hate people who make it difficult for me. You want it like that? I will make things difficult for you all.

You cast away my suggestions, nevermind. You don't offer your suggestions and you reject mine, nevermind. You make noise and ruin my plans, that totally turns me off. AND! i really take it as a personal attack you know? My purpose for this sentosa trip is not for me to earn money or whatsoever you know? I'm doing this solely for the class, is that so wrong? Do i deserve such treatment for bringing the class together?

You guys never learn. Only know how to be selfish and study and study. So much for morals. You guys are always pushing me to the corner, why? Is getting people together a henious crime? If that's the case, i should get Convicted and a death sentence. With idiots like you all, you disgust me. You make the class and society and the world an ugly place.

You can reject my suggestions, sure. You can don't turn up. At least have the courtesy to tell me the truth. Even so, turn up for at least some of it. It really makes me lose the interest to organise such stuff you know? It's time you start thinking about others rather than yourself. You dumbass actions have made me so upset that i always have to make those who faithfully turn up for trips and events. I'm really sorry for saying such stuff but you guys really make me SICK. DOWNRIGHT SICK!

Junkai, Kenneth, Zhanfei, Jason, Wilson, Jia Lun you are not part of this for sure. Don't worry, you guys are the reason why i am still organising.

The rest, not all of you make me sick. A handful only. I just don't want to make things too obvious. I'm not like those handful of people to make people feel so demoralised. I shan't embarrass you.

I feel so lost.. i don't want to give up hope on anyone. Can anyone please show me and give me a reason to believe again.

2009-06-23T20:39:00.002+08:00

Who wants to go to sentosa on friday? For 4/7 people, it will be a class outing.. 10am at cck mrt interchange. Please be early. Hope to see you there.

2009-06-22T18:15:00.001+08:00

OK! For those people who received stupid messages like baby or i love you from me, please ignore it! My idiotic friend used my phone and mass messaged some people in my contact list and i don't know who. Sorry!

2009-06-21T00:30:00.002+08:00

Thank you to everyone who voted for "NO" to my decision to delete the blog. 4 votes only but still it means a lot. In fact, it has rekindled my interest in blogging, though it wasn't as enthusiastic as before. It means a lot to me, so thank you guys or girls.

THANKS! I think i may know who are the 4... thanks anyway

2009-06-19T18:59:00.002+08:00

The growing korean influence around me is increasing! Even when i'm on facebook, the recommended fans for me are like Kimbum/F4/some other koreans. Wondergirls are in the minds of JUNKAI & other 4/7 people.. It's crazy to deal with the korean pressure. LOL! It's impossible if i say i'm not in the least bit influenced. Definetly will get affected what. This is scary!

Frankly, i don't feel like blogging anymore.. I think the inspiration and the mood comes from the tagboard.. I think that's why people delete their blogs.. I'm pretty sick of just seeing myself filling my own tagboard like the world only has me living. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

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2009-06-18T20:09:00.003+08:00

Frustrated with Physics.. Damn lah, i never listen in class then now suffering like hell.. Come on patience is the key to success. I promise to listen to my teachers now man.. :( Once bitten twice shy! And in the meantime... I maxed out my playlist songs limit. 200. I gotta focus on work!

Today was terminator salvation day for us.. I ,kenneth, jason, junkai, leslie, loy zhanfei watched terminator salvation. I had a pretty fun day making fun of jason during the movie.. Of course, to raise viewership in my blog, i gotta resort to some interesting methods. Here are some key moments today:

Rules: Every moment is rated on a lol-o-meter. lol is the least, followed by rofl, lmao. CAPS LOCK represents extremely..
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Moment 1 : Waiting for the people to arrive

Chas: (Looks at his handphone time as Jason and Kenneth has not arrive, suddenly phone rings)
Yes?

Jason: Hey i will be late

Chas: why? (sarcastic)

Jason: Cause i boarded the wrong train (cheeky)

Chas: WHAT? YOu really damn mat siol

Jason: I took the train and landed up in Yew Tee

Chas: You are really damn M-A-T

Jason: Ya i know.. So just telling you, i will be late (hangs up)

Chas: (thinks)*(Is he calling me to tell me a joke or what?)

Lol-o-meter: lol
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Moment 2: Buying tickets

Chas: Eh pass junkai the money then we hurry go in 5mins more!

Jk: Pass money.. hurry ( and pays for the cinema tickets)

After 3mins

JK: eh i go buy popcorn first..

Chas & jason: Ok...

Chas & jason: eh so wheres the tickets? ( everyone almost going in)

JK: OH! the auntie never give me ( Looking very innocent)

The auntie selling tickets giving the puzzled look

Chas: Funny ah? Auntie nvr give you means you dont need watch movie is it?

Jk: (smile smile)

Lol-o-meter: lol
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Moment 3: During the Terminator Movie, Kissing scene when the mechanical dude kissed the girl.

Chas: Eh mat( jason), look at that siol

Jason: What lah

Chas: Haha the girl is kissing spare parts.. its like shes kissing a computer

Jason: Go away lah! You spoil the movie leh!

Chas: Eh? but won't the mechanic guy like rust or something?

Jason: Wa lao eh! I want to watch one leh!

Lol-o-meter: ROFL jason kena disturbed

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Moment 4: When the girl appears, she looks like she was going to take off her clothes

Chas: (whispers) eh junkai, it looks like someone's distracted

Jk: (whispers) huh?

Chas: (points to zhan fei)

Everyone: HORNY IDIOT

Zhanfei: (Gives a horny smile)

Chas: Don't be too happy, the show is rated PG

(Girl takes off her jacket only)

Zhanfei: ( disappointed)

Lol-o-meter: LMAO

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So yeah thats about it for today.. Thanks for your support!

2009-06-17T19:34:00.003+08:00

Today was the last day of English enrichment.. both good and bad things. Why? Cause i won't be able to go to school and collect pocket money :(. And, i wont be able meet friends. Ok here comes the good part, i can sleep longer and thats it.

Well, here comes the interesting part. I find my blog is like some whining corner and also a ranting session for me. Ok maybe thats what a blog is.. But really.. this world is flawed in such a way that i can help but make noise. And today yes i did face a situation when i got pissed off very badly when i went to school.. I shan't elaborate about that part, but i realised it's no use being angry and that sometimes i should just change my perspective. We are humans, we err and i accept that and move on and change. I guess thats what 80 years of our lives are for.. Mistakes and Corrections. Of course not the Prema type of corrections, i can't stand that. LOL!

Anyway, today the security guard in our school made me damn angry man. I was late for lessons AGAIN, well so i didnt care and just wore slippers and rushed to school. Here is the conversation:

Security guard: Eh boy cannot go in ah.. slippers cannot

Chasper: What? i late already ah.. cannot

Security guard: Cannot lah! slippers cannot go in

Chasper: Eh boss, i really late, last day of course cannot like that

Security guard: But really cannot ah

Chasper: Aiya, my toe injured lah

Security guard: Where got? Don't lie

Chasper: Internal injury lah.. anyway i late already, just let lah

Security guard: I say cannot wear slippers ok!

Chasper: ( I thought of a stupid plan: I just took off my slippers and walk)
OK lah! now not wearing slippers already lah, i going in..

Security guard: ( stunned)

End of the story.. Moral? " Quick thinking saves the day" LOLOLOLOLOL

2009-06-16T14:04:00.002+08:00

I promise never to eat seoul garden again man! Firstly the food ain't nice and it got me a sore throat. I really pray it doesn't develop into a fever. Damn.. now have to chiong 2 english essays..One for Prema and another for the enrichment.. Nothing much interesting other than i feel like sleeping..Zzzzzzzz

Can someone tell me what else to do which is entertaining? BORING

2009-06-14T00:23:00.002+08:00

SCREW THIS MAN!

I CAN'T PLAY FALLOUT 3 CAUSE OF SOME WINDOWS CONFIGURATION FILE THINGY.. BUT I CAN'T DOWNLOAD IT AND FIND IT. Can some kind soul help?

I'M LIKE IN A RAGE NOW CAUSE OF THAT RETARDED ERROR THING. IM TRYING TO CONTROL BUT I AM ANGRY

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2009-06-12T22:17:00.002+08:00

Finally the weekends.. And im starting to blog regularly.. Maybe life is/should get more interesting.. I just realised that i am living quite a comfortable life and why am i complaining? Of course there are some areas which i lack and i feel empty there... I shan't elaborate further.. Also, there is where i hate to lack.. It's really case of getting what i want but not what i need.

Today life was pretty interesting. Near scares at first like my ez-link card no money, i had only 50 cents ( 5 cents short of taking bus), until kenneth told me go up and act cute. So.. i missed the first 985 bus, and i got up the second 985 and i gave everything a try. My ez-link card failed me, last resort, 50 cents. I put in 50 cents, then the bus driver look at me. I smile at him then he let me off.. PHEW! Lucky siol. I entered and just sat down and was damn grateful. I reached school late.. 15 mins.. I entered class and sat at the back.. Physics was chim cause i didnt study but i managed to cope. I was smsing and reading newspaper at the back before i finally paid attention. After that.. English Enrichment.. somehow i prefer that indian dude to the moon guy leh... Of course i would want to enjoy reading and writing to improve my english. Language is also an art. A very nice one.

OK this a picture in Left 4 Dead which is really a bit weird, cause why are infected and humans together? LOL we posed for a picture, enjoy. I will end here

I'm still hoping for the impossible.... Yes... Will it ever be reciprocated?

2009-06-10T22:41:00.004+08:00

Garena players for L4D in the Singaporean server is making me fed up. Suddenly start calling me loser? Those losers really dont know who they are calling loser. I bet in terms of other aspects in life, i kick their ass flat. Seriously before Singaporeans are being branded as sore losers, we better stop being so rude when playing online games.

Ok.. my ranting session yesterday, i really hope for some response, i hope it does make sense..
WHOEVER WHO LOVES MY PLAYLIST, MAKE SOME NOISE!!!

IN MY TAGBOARD OF COURSE

Emo as usual

2009-06-09T22:38:00.003+08:00

EMO AND RANTING SESSION

Pause.

Marvel at the beauty of imperfection. Imperfection is flawed, simultaneously it can be perfection. Wait isn't this a paradox? Yes it is. Ultimately it boils down to perspective. That was just an example of Imperfection. But the more you look at it, you will start to understand the meaning. Love is really the epitome of imperfection being perfect. Why is it imperfect? Look at how people distort the meaning of love and twist it so badly that so many people lost all hope in it. It's not hard to believe that mistrust and skepticism is widely rampant. Failure in love is inevitable but why is it that this wonderful thing in life is not treasured but instead treated as a liability and a curse. I think that is the only thing worth living for, what else can this world full of darkness and deceit offer? Why let scars be there to remind you of the terrible past? Can't it provide you some valuable lesson? Don't let it make you be overly-pre-cautious, be open-minded but yet cautious. Don't always judge every single guy because of those you met. That is the imperfection side of love.

Perfection of love it feels as if the world freezes with you and your loved one alone. The feeling of the hearts takes more than just words to describe an amazing feeling like this. The greater the love, the larger the happiness. Love should not be a painful and agonizing process. It should be something which sucks you in and gives you a far better experience than the word "satisfied". The funniest thing about love is that it always leave you speechless and vulnerable. You have a million and one practised phrases to use on, but to the girl, you can't seem to use any. To me, the best you can do is the heartfelt feeling. It's just like a form of telepathy. I would consider this really a wonder of the world. Can science ever explain the deep feeling called love? Never..

Sad to say, this telepathy is getting to be more like magic. Not the effect but the occurrence. It's really a shame. I would love to really meet a girl who never gives up on love, never fails to love. The meaning of love has long been lost.. Disappeared. Now my question is.. Can we bring back the meaning of love? Share the joy not spread the pain. It pains me to see such a gift being wasted because of doubts.

2009-06-03T19:29:00.002+08:00

I don't understand why always my life always has to revolve around my past? Why cant people just stop using the past to judge who am i today? It's always the same thing. The worse is that... it seems like everything is falling apart. Can i salvage everything? Is it possible for this?

Crush.. Yeah.. totally.. Sometimes, not even words or feelings can ever get through the other person even with sincerity. With your past, you as good as staying that way. Why can't there be way out? Screwed man..

Will it matter?

2009-06-02T15:52:00.002+08:00

O LEVELS ARE DONE! HUAT AH

For chinese at least. Sigh! Thank the lord for everything. Now i gotta stop slacking and continue studying. The burden on me has been lighted by quite a bit. The journey of the thousands miles begin with the first step, so.. im 1/20 done. At least its a start. LOL

2009-05-31T20:21:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow. The Day of Reckoning. I really depend on god for this exam. Oh man.. it will be crucial, all the best for myself. And for those taking Os, also all the best. Formats and sentences are flooding my mind now. Eve of the exam will pile up the pressure on us. Prevail! Wooohoo HUAT AH!

2009-05-30T19:01:00.002+08:00

2 MORE DAYS TO GCE CHINESE EXPRESS O LEVEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok.. Thats like how much time i have left.... Before entering the examination hall on June 1st 0800, i am now preparing and make damn sure i am well-prepared. No room for mistakes or carelessness. No room for compromises. A B3 is a B3. That's what i want to get. I really don't want to re-take chinese. The fate lies in my hands, paper 1 is something i can depend on myself. Paper 2 is something i really can't do anything about it. Overall, i have to depend on god. Come on, let's make this all a success. It's now me against everyone, everyone against each other. I know i can't believe that now i am actually finishing up 1 paper of my O Levels. Do it once, do it well. The sky is limit so aim big, dream big and most importantly, Work hard.

Dreaming of the freedom that i longed for, it's approaching.. Releasing the burden that i carried on my shoulders on 13 November 2009. I only took on this burden was to look forward to that day. Failure is not an option. Acceptable is not acceptable either. Good is not good. Best is what i crave. I don't want to settle for anything less. Hunger doesn't mean devouring, it is a drive to devour. Without the success to satisfy this hunger, it would be deadly to the ego. Basking in success is what i desire. I have to achieve. This would be first test, keep it cool and deliver. That's it.

2009-05-22T20:16:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time since i've blogged. Ok.. we survived the 5 Day War. Whats that?
It's a 5 day period with the sec 4 keep doing paper 1 and 2 everyday. Which means 5 sets of full papers for chinese. How did i survive? Well, i don't know either. Perhaps the survival kit is perseverance? I'm really bushed. I shall rest today and really think about chinese tomorrow. Now, just relax all the way.

I wanna see a good grade for chinese and other subjects on my O level certificate. This is the turning point, i have to start having a sense of urgency. This time im really serious about it. Do or die.

2009-05-09T19:20:00.002+08:00

The music quality nowadays are dropping tremendously. The top song now on the charts are like what.. The Climb by Miley Cyrus. I find that ok but not special enough to deserve the number one song. Also i dont understand why nowadays coldplay isn't as well-liked as the rest. Rhythm is now the only thing that separates a good song from a lousy one. Rhythm is something easy to make. But without a meaning of a song, what is a song? That is something people like me are dying to find songs with meaning. If anyone faces a problem in life, i really mean serious problems. Go hear "Fix you" by Coldplay. I will post the lyrics below, it may just be a song but it has a lot of meaning. Find the meaning yourself.

"Fix You"

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

2009-05-02T00:24:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, SYF showcase. Not bad ah. Everyone did well, in particular CO. Could see that everyone put in their best. Even jokers or blur blocks can even perform and concentrate very well, which actually is a good thing. Well, glad that i went over to view such a performance. Good job guys and girls. After that, i had dinner/supper at the bukit timah area near my house. To be honest, i wasn't really happy. Especially with some people. Always pangseh-ing us. When you were in trouble, i will always be there to help. Now when your "friends" are not here, you leave with them. If thats the case, i don't recognise you as a friend either. So be it.

Im no longer gonna organise any shit anymore. Think its so easy? Try it yourself.

Enough of yesterday's incident. But Seriously.. life is really getting more and more mundane. Im becoming more reluctant to study, i'd better change that. Sian, as i blogsurfed, im seeing more and more couples in our level. Perhaps its a sudden crave for love when A Math or other subjects get too demanding? I dont know.. Maybe we are all feeling the same way. Could love and study co-exist and even interlinked? We've yet to see. For now, we are all lonely souls =( Damn!

2009-04-24T23:05:00.002+08:00

I'm seriously feeling generally shitty today. Why? Chinese exams lah. Damn it. I tried studying but the paper 2 was really damn hard. I barely understood anything the passage was saying. At this rate, im gonna get screwed lah. I have to continue and stay strong.

I just realised that O levels are just like a string of mind games. If you happen to screw up a paper or not up to satisfaction, you really have to go on. I know it will be hard to forget, but if you harp on it further, it will affect your other results. I gotta improve myself.

Radical changes here i come!

2009-04-22T21:38:00.003+08:00

Goodbye soccer! My 4 years reign in the cca has ended. I served 4 years of my life to Soccer cca. out of these 4 years, i got 3 medals. All of them were 4th. I guess my legacy in the cca is that i do a lot of tricks and love taking on players. Not that negative after all. It's kinda hard to say that i don't bother. It is kinda etched to my heart as one of the things in life i want to achieve. 4th is the end result. I'm not disappointed nor very happy though. At least i had friends throughout these 4 years. Mainly from my level and some from sec 3. I don't want to get too emo also lah, later no one wants to read. Ok! Now one of my targets are kinda accomplished. Now its O levels. Damn, i regretted not putting enough effort for soccer. Now, i make sure i don't regret for O levels. But focus on mid year first. I'm not even gonna let chinese off this time. I will make sure i get higher than a C5 if possible. Step by step. Slowly. Relak ah. Lepak!

Every road is a ray of light. It goes on and on and on. Time only can lead you on.

2009-04-19T20:35:00.002+08:00

How scary is it to know that my chinese mid year exam is like on friday? Either im crazy or im confident. The latter doesn't seem very possible. Its a golden age for CCKSS 09. Let's see the achievement due to our graduating cohord. SYF most CCAs improved ( i guess), soccer maintained. Takraw improved. UGs, i dont know. But well, its something worth celebrating. I really really hope my NYAA bronze is approved by tomorrow, then can get the award. MAN! I don't wanna feel left out.

Soccer seems like its ending. I want to finish the tournament ASAP but if we end it early, we cant go far. We end it late, it will eat into studying time. Either way, i gain and lose. I hope for everything to go on well.. For now, study for chinese lor. What to do? O levels will pass fast but i have to act fast too.... Im entering a new stage of my life now. Damn! Something's still missing. My dear readers, what do you think i am missing?

2009-04-12T19:18:00.003+08:00

BORING SIOL!

Life is getting boring! I dont know why. But well, perhaps im getting lonely. Other than studying, what is else is there to do? SIGH. I added a SIOL behind because im really too bored. Oh man! Someone save my ass...

I tried playing football manager again.. apparently, im not meant to play games i cant control fully. It doesn't like me. What the heck man. What else is there to do?

2009-04-11T19:23:00.002+08:00

Well.. a few weeks of training and match before i officially end my journey in my cca. Its like so hard to leave but then again, it can be a long break for me. See lah.. All O levels fault. If not, can play soccer everyday. Lol. I have to work for what i want.

Now i'm running the race alone. It's been this way for a long time.

2009-04-09T23:05:00.003+08:00

Ok.. i dont know what happened seriously. It wasn't very clear. Whatever it is, forgive me if i had done anything wrong. But tell me how did i do it wrong. Sorry for that. But i've changed compared to last time. You should know who are you. Maybe we should really clarify things properly. I still treat you as a friend ok! Relax.

For a different person, it just seems like ages since we've chat. Sigh.. i dont know what to do.

2009-04-07T21:57:00.003+08:00

Yo man! Im back. I'm kinda out of words to say now, but i guess it would make things short and sweet. My class is gonna have a celebration on good friday for the april babies, well at least we are gonna eat at somewhere nice. Kinda looking forward to it. I really hope this year would really be a great and memorable year. My ideal year would be a good o level results, cca points and also end off my cca with a memorable moment. Of course, i would love to have someone i love to be with me throughout this arduous journey. Dont be mistaken, this is not any matchmaking service.

Whats the difference of goals and dreams? Dreams are something we only think of wanting. Goals are something we pursue for . So what are your goals and dreams? I have mine. How about yours?

2009-04-06T21:24:00.002+08:00

Today wasn't an exceptionally good day, but well if you have to take it as a challenge. Thats what im doing. True enough, im feeling great though. I took 985 home and had a very bad stomache ache, i stopped at west mall and visit the loo. I felt wonderful. Ok too much details. LOL! I've gotta start doing well for my mid year. What the hell is wrong with people these days? Why is everyone being so pessimistic and saying they are being realistic? Band 3 maths doesn't mean we are always last. Mr chua boon woo is good, but the thing is that, we only lack the self-confidence and the discipline. That sets us apart from band 1. It doesn't matter what everyone thinks, now i only care is to improve myself.

Life has been getting quite boring without you.. I'm not trying to be difficult but i just hope someday we can find a time and really have a talk like how we used to. Remember the good times? I am sure we will. I will still be waiting.... You may not believe but i will be waiting at this very moment till then...